This counts as typing practice, right?

I HATE KEYBOARDING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

K got that out of my system. I Cannot pass keyboarding if my life depended on it. I pretty much hate it. its a stupid pointless class cuz in the real world there is this key called backspace that you can use as much as you would like. I've used it like 30 times in the last sentence alone. But I got out what I wanted to say and I didn't look. BAHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! and why the hell do I need keyboarding anyway? accounting. numbers not typing. bah!

on a completely unrelated note I learned a valuable lesson last night that I will now impart to you:

One should never eat 50 something(the number varies from text to text last night.. so I'm not entirely sure how many I had. Somewhere between 54-58) pixy stix and 40 ozs of dew at 10 at night-or prolly at any one time-regardless of how tired one may be. Especially if one expects to go home and go to sleep. It doesn't happen. One will end up jumping on one's bed until almost 3 am and sending horribly random texts to ones favorite nerd. (sorry babe) Just saying... it's not a good idea prolly.

and another completely unrelated note. I need to figure out my new years resolutions here is what I'm thinking of doing.:

• Cut back to one dew a day. this one will prolly win and then I'll break it halfway thru the year cuz that's how I roll.
• Move out. This one will happen by November it's not really a resolution, more like a new years promise.
• Get an IRS job. this one had better be a new years promise or I start stabbing eyes. I was good at my job and I jumped thru every hoop they've asked. I now have 6 perfect score sitting in the bank. I had better get an email right quick about my job or the eyes will have it(it being a fork stabbed into them) haha pun.
• scripture study. I've gotten really bad about that.. ideally I'd like to have it every day, but three times a week would be better than I'm getting right now.

so there is part of my starting list. I'll weed it out to like 4 or 5 in the next 2 weeks but if you have any suggestions feel free to let me know.

Not really lovin possesive pronouns

So I just got my English test back.. I got an 84% on possessive pronouns. Not so thrilled. It's enough it doesn't hurt my need to not take that final but I think I coulda done better if I hadn't put it off for a month cuz I didn't like the new teacher guy. He's mellowed out tho.. and so have I.. so it's.. tolerable... yeah anyway that's my update.. next stop pronouns and antecedents

Applied tech colleges..grr

So what is with Applied Tech Schools and screwing over students? I was going to the DATC (Davis applied tech college) for sign language this time last year and they screwed me and forced me to drop out and lose those 21 credits or whatev I had earned. so I did.. now I go to the OWATC(Ogden-Weber applied tech college) and I was doing amazingly. Because it's a work at your own pace type thing in one month I managed to crank out about 150 credit hours.. in a month.. that's AMAZING!!!!!! And then they pull this crap. they take away the two teachers that actually know what they are talking about and their subjects and stick us with one guy who only knows keyboarding the the very basic computer lit stuff.. very basic.. he also treats us like crap.. no respect.. walks around with a giant stick up his @$$ and when you ask him for help he'll answer in a very ambiguously vague way... GRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!! He's a pompous ass and I hate him.. but I refuse to lose those credits... REFUSE. so I'll deal with it.. for now but when I get put in jail for assault and battery.. someone come visit me k?

yay for english!

I just got a 92% on my English test... I'm very excited... I'm well on my way to avoiding the final test... he he! I guess those five English classes did their job back in high school.... I also have 16 hours of keyboarding done.. which is freakin awesome since keyboarding is a freakin hard class... yeah but they are screwing all of us over Monday by taking away the advisers that know what the hell they are talking about and giving us one guy to teach everything from math to accounting to computer lit to English to correspondence.. and apparently he only knows how to do the keyboarding/computer lit part of it... so we'll see what happens.. yeah that's it

Confusion :S(contains mild cursing....sorry)

So I'm really confused so I'm going to blog and hope to get some semblance of understanding.. or at least organization of said confusing thoughts and feelings:

K haha so I'll start with the good: Andy got a gs4 perm job-which is very good. He'll be making more money and stuff so he can move out and what not. The bad(I think) is it's a swing job.. meaning from like 4-1230 at night I think.. so I'm not going to get to see as much of him as I'd like.. but I did manage to see him while he was working graves and I was working days so it can be done. I wonder if this was a little for me too... I've kinda been waiting around hoping to get my old files job back cuz I didn't want to give up my nights to working and days to school. But I made the decision that I am sick of waiting around for something that may or may not happen and I want to get back out there and get a job(I hate Hate HATE!!! not having income.. I have a car payment along with various other bills i.e. school insurance and gas for said car and I'm trying to move out by this time next year so it would be nice to be able to start putting back into that fund instead of taking out) and then this happened so I think that's kinda the go ahead.. i know I can get a swing type job whenev I want.. I'm not all about going back to food but nights aren't that bad and I know how to do it and deal with school at the same time I did it all thru high school and with only 2 or 3 hours of school a day I'd be ok.. but that's a last resort so unless something magical in jobland happens in the next 7 hours or so til I go to bed that's going to be a big part of tomorrow. yeah. it sucks.

ok number two: speaking of Andy! BAH!!!! Why are boys so hard to read?! I have no idea what he is thinking or wants half the time... then again I don't really know what I want most the time either... But yeah I don't even know what to think about the whole Andy situation. I always want to be around him, when my life went to shit a few weeks ago he was the first person I told and some of the only times I could think and breath and not just sit in my room freaking out and unable to function was when I was with him. I always feel so safe when I'm with him, like nothing could ever hurt me, and I hate leaving him at his doorstep (or him leaving me at mine). Last night despite the fact that was freaking cold as hell and way too late for either of us to be up cuz we both had to get up semi early I couldn't help but want to just stay with him( I nearly fell asleep on his shoulder is how this story ended.. he told me I had to go inside and go to sleep or else), I used to be able to go to movies and plays and stuff with Krogman and Zane or by myself and now it just feels weird without him there, I used to not live to hear my phone vibrate hoping i could go over there.. hell even doing homework is more fun and easier to do when I'm with him (well maybe not easier to do but when I do do it I retain more info it's so weird) Knowing him has given me and eternal perspective that 20 years of church couldn't do and that has helped me in so many ways, he's also given me an undying testimony of the priesthood and the knowledge that I both want and need that in my life for the duration there of. I can talk to him about anything and everything under the sun. Last night we went from talking about the movie we had just seen to work to religion to sex to the future to family issues to music to teasing about embarrassing past things to wow to our party days to his mission to my less than wholesome thoughts involving us to south park and back again! I would trust him with my life and then some. I can't even imagine not having him in my life nor can I remember how to have a life without him being a part of it. This scares me. First off because I am too damn young to be feeling like this and making such big decisions such as what I want to do for the rest of my life to pay the bills and if the opportunity arises who I want to be with for the rest of.. forever! I've lived with my family-who I love- for 20 years and I'm about ready to kill all of them on a daily basis! Forever is such a long time! This also scares me for another reason. He has the power to hurt me in a way that no one else does.. or ever has had to my knowledge. that doesn't mean that he will and I am not saying I don't trust him. but that is fact. I have held up pretty ok emotionally thus far despite everything that has gone on but I blame that solely on his allowing me to come hang with him.. like all the time. I dunno it's just big and scary... it almost makes me miss some of my old high school boy problems.. not really but almost.

and finally(well not really but the final big one) school: I'm so not sure if accounting is going to be what I think it will and even if it's what I want.. I mean the classes(aside from keyboarding) have all been relatively easy and unless I get divine intervention I am finishing out this accounting program if nothing else but I don't know if I want to do this for the next 40 years or so... I don't know if I want to do anything for the next 40 or so years hell the way I get bored with things I don't know that there's anything that could interest me for more than 5 or 6 years... I dunno

yeah so that's all... stupid life.. I'm going to go contemplate things whilst watching the Simpsons

Keyboarding

I HATE KEYBOARDING!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok now that that's out...I feel a little better.. but no where in the real world will anyone put a blinder on my keyboard and tell me I have to type jiberish lines like daa daa la; la; jaa aaa lss dss sss dad dad dss at a speed of 40 wpm or faster without using the backspace key....ever!!! I'll always be able to look at the damn keys and type things that are important and make sense.. grr that's pretty much it.. I'm jusy not all about 5 hours of keyboadring a day.. on the plus side I finished computer lit in just 42 hours for a 90 hour class... and I didn't have to take a final

More about school

So I realize I've already posted about school...I don't really care all that much I'm posting more cuz it's uber cool. I finished 80 credit hours of Computer Lit in 36 real hours! that's a whole class in a little over a week (cuz I have a little bit of business english every day so like 4.5 hours of computer lit and 1.5hours of business english a day) yeah it's pretty much awesome!! I've got some finishing up/cleaning stuff to do tomorrow then I take my final prolly thursday then I am done Done DONE!!!!!! Haha it's freaking awesome... if the stupid state would just give me the unemployment I deserve I could be done Done DONE with school in like 3-5 months at this rate...but alas they will not... but yeah it's awesome

school.. ugh

As much as I proclaim to hate school this blog may end up being a board to keep everyone updated on how awesome or craptabulious I'm doing (yes craptabulious..it's a big smarticle college word that I've learned... so is smarticle) so the first of many blogs on this subject.
I'm nearly done with my computer lit class. It only took me like 2 weeks, which is awesome considering I'm a techtard (there's another college word..techtarded) and I did most all of it without my nerd of a boyfriends help... most all of it...he did pretty much define every word having to do with computers ever! (thanks babe ;) I dunno if you'll read this or admit to reading it but somehow I think if you find out about it you'll follow it pretty religiously... or Lucy will for you) But I did all the projects myself with no outside help! This is a big accomplishment for me. I also just got my 2nd business English test back-94% woot! On the first one I got and 84%! Double woot! If I can keep this up and my average at the end is 80% or above on all my "A" test scores (they do three tests an "a" "b" and "c" if you pass the "a" with above 80% you don't have to take "b" or "c" if you don't pass "a" you have to take "b" and pass with 80% or you have to take "c". Make sense?) I don't have to take the comprehensive final-which I would like to avoid at all costs! so I'm on track for that right now WOOT!