Football Halftime

This is just a short blog to say I am sick of corrupt football. Refs can not I repeat CAN NOT block for a team. This is Cheating. Just an FYI also not calling very obvious pass interferance and calling a very obvious not pass interferance is also cheating. This will send you to hell later. So enjoy your fancy cars and one night stands now. cuz someday you will pay for it you cheaters. That is all cuz the game is back on

Waiting for my Cd's to import to itunes.

Yeah. So I'm reimporting all my cd's to my itunes again. But this time Itunes is on an external drive. so as long as that doesn't give out I shouldn't have to do this again for a while. While I wait I think I'll blog a little.

It's the day after Christmas here. well I guess technically 2 days after since it's 12:46 am but whatev. Christmas was interesting. I got to see my buddy Daniel and his Wife Katelyn and their adorable son Cayden(age 2)for the first time since Daniel moved to days. I hung out with them for a couple hours then it was off to family obligations for both of us. This is the second year I've done Christmas with two families. Things usually work out pretty good cuz my Family does things on Cristmas eve and his family does their stuff on Christmas day. We went to my uncles house Christmas eve and had ham and chips and salad and brownies and such then we did gifts and we got a bunch of cool stuff. I got a pair of jeans a slider maker (yay!) and my personal favorite a pooping squirrel candy dispenser! Double yay!!! My cousins were there which is always a toss up cuz thier parents are divorced and we got to play wii and hang out and just have a good time. We left around midnight or 12:30 and came home. Then we got up about 9 am (ugh)and went to Andy's parents house to do their thing. Which was super fun. All four of Andy's siblings were there as well as Andy's brother Jim's wif e Amanda (who I love. She is so freakishly funny)and their two kids Clayton (age 3) and Lexi( or Alexis age 1). They were so fun. I love watching little kids on Christmas. So much fun. Even Andy's 9 year old sister Kaycee was fun to watch for a while. Until she went a little overboard. Then it was annoying. Then we went to my Grandma Sparkes house and saw my family. My grandma is 91 years old so I made it a point to go see her. We aren't sure how much longer she'll be with us (although she's still going strong.) but She's just as much fun as a little kid. Like all the time. Then we went to my Cousin Todd's house and got to see them. Because of the age gap between my mom and her sister Todd's kids are closer to my age then he is but I like Todd and his wife Michelle. They are super nice and everything. Then we went to Danny Schroders house to see Megan and her new son Hunter(and her husband and other son Braxton). But they weren't there. But Laurie and Danny and Mike Hensley and his girlfriend whose name I can't remeber right now... oops... were all there and it was fun seeing them. then Ellie came over to our apt and hung out while my parents delivered some plates and visited some other friends. Then today we went to Andy's Family party. I'll admit I wasn't too keen on the idea of a party the day after Christmas (I believe my exact words were you've got to be kidding. Whose Idea was this?) but it wasn't too bad. I got to talk with Erin and Amanda and Lyndsay (andy's cousin Cody's girlfriend) And andy got to see Cody and they've started to patch things up. which is good. I hope. and stuff. It wasn't too bad. All in all it was pretty good. I will say tho that after 3 days of ham (which I've never been too keen on anyway. all pig parts should be made into super crispy and super delicious bacon in my opinion) I am so done with ham for the year. Maybe next year if I beg and plead someone will make a turkey for Christmas. Hell I'd settle for pizza with ham on it. But Whatevs. no more ham in this house (except lunchmeat ham) for a few months. or years. Anywho I think I'm done importing cd's for the night so I'll catch up more tomorrow after the game when I get back to doing this (I'm hoping by next weekend to be done and able to hook my ipod up and not lose too much) Cross your fingers for me. If we don't win against Philly tomorrow We are out of the wild card and my hopes of finishing this season with a double digit wins is out the door. Please Please win Broncos. It could be my own personal Christmas miracle.

More random late night thoughts.(mostly venting)

Hey Ya'll. Guess who's up at 430 in the effing morning eating cheese and crackers and blogging cuz she can't sleep. like ever? If you guessed me then you are....wrong. The answer I was going for was Robyn. Robyn... Nah I'm just messing with you. it's me (also I've been watching How I met your mother. Awesome show. if you haven't seen it go get Season one disk 2 and watch game night. That's game night. Then go get season 4 I believe also disk two and watch the naked man.- just trust me on this one- If you aren't hooked then there is something seriously wrong with you.) So I figured I'd maybe try and sort out some of these thoughts that are racing thru my head. And staring at a computer screen usually makes me really tired.

First. Denver lost by one point... ONE POINT to Oakland. This was not a good way to start of my Sunday. The Oakland/Denver game used to be one of the biggest ticket games in the NFL. This is a rivalry that is as old as the NFL. It was the toughest game of the season. Twice as big as the U of U/ BYU football game and more brutal than walking thru a dog pound with bacon pants. Lately it's not been that huge since both teams... have not been playing their best. Between Jay Cutler and Jamarcus Russell It's been a low scoring circus of a game. Earlier this year (before the broncos fell apart what up with that?) Denver was able to kill the Raiders on their home turf. Hold them to only a field goal. This time it seems that the Raiders were back with a vengeance. They held us to only Field goals. I wasn't able to watch the game on TV because green bay was playing and we had to watch that and then I just deleted the game off my dvr but How the hell did that happen? I mean really they manage to get 2 or 3 touchdowns and we can't do one? WTF guys? I don't mind losing by a lot to a team that is consistently better than me. I can respect that. But to lose to a team that normally can't pull their heads out on our turf by one fricken point? unacceptable.(Although one really fat raiders receiver lost his pants during a tackle. Funniest thing I've seen in a while.)
That Green Bay Game we had to watch? They also Played my Most hated team ever. EVER The Pittsburgh Steelers. And Green bay also managed to lose by one fricken point. It was not a good day at this household.
And since we are on the subject of Pro football I'll vent on a little longer about that. Up until this point this season there have been two undefeated teams- The colts and the saints- Now I can respect a good team and a good player don't get me wrong. Got nothing against Peyton (Eli is another story) but everything has gone just too perfectly for the Colts. There have been games where the first half they are down by 20+ points with not so much as a holding call on either team and then all of a sudden second half the opposing team gets 37 penalties on them and the colts are able to squeak by and chalk another win. I'm not saying that the colts did anything wrong- aka paid off the refs like a certain Pittsburgh team has admitted to doing. or anything- but I am accusing the NFL big wigs of something. Here's an idea. How bout instead of what team will bring the most money statistically and will cause the fans to go nuts over and lets take the black rookie coach give him a team whose fan base used to be huge but has been slipping a little and a veteran QB who has something to prove cuz his dad played for the same team years ago and whose younger brother has been getting all the glory for the past few years and put them together with a lot of advantages and calls that are questionable to say the least and they'll do what the Patriots couldn't do a few years ago and go undefeated all the way thru the Superbowl to make us so damn much money and instead how bout we go back to that basics? I think that if football (or basketball or any pro sport really) was played the way it was back in the 40's and 50's when honesty and integrity reined supreme that we would have some different standings. also I believe you could get many more people to watch more regularly and players would play for 15 years easy. Instead now you have people that can't even watch the game because the teams take 5 minute breaks between plays to figure out how to physically incapacitate the other team and the refs spend 20 minutes or more on a call that has been challenged haggling the price of their integrity. I hope that in heaven they have sports and on Saturday morning you can go catch a game with all the great players and know that it was a fun friendly game. and then go back to your daily life and have no hard feelings. (I'm personally hoping that I get to play with Floyd Little and Craig Morton and John Elway and and The 2009 roster. As mad as I am right now They are still my heroes to date. I see some potential in the next few years if we're giving a chance.)
Anyway I think the point of that whole paragraph was that the saints lost to my second most hated team the Dallas Cowboys Thursday leaving the Colts the only undefeated team just as it was planned.

Sorry one more, Both my college teams have made it to bowls tho. #8 Ohio State will be first facing #7 Oregon in the first game of the new year that I care about the rose bowl on Jan 1st 2010 at 430 on ABC . watch it. I'm thinking Oregon's explosive offense will be our downfall but I'm just happy we made it. Watch it. Just do it. and then following that on Jan 4Th at 8 pm on fox Boise State will be taking on TCU in the Fiesta bowl. Again prolly going to lose. Still Psyched we made it. Yay.

OK on to real more important things than sports. (although I effectively managed to procrastinate away a full hour)So I've been having some second thoughts about life choices I've recently made. I know these are supposed to come before but I've never really been one for what you're supposed to do. Darcy a month or so ago informed me that she had decided to go on a mission. It pretty much rocked my world. I mean we've been talking about it since we were little kids-no really- and there are few people that would make a better missionary than Darcy but it totally made me stop and go whoa. I mean before when Angi left (she comes back in may. I hope to get another letter to her before that) a mission was still an option for me. In fact it was my plan. I was OK with my life because I was working a respectable job during the day and hanging out with my friends at night. (mostly at the TPP) but then my whole world changed. First we all got laid off. Then I had 3 months of unemployment then I found the worst job in the world and the only way to take it was on nights. which I thought I would like better. I mean get to sleep in during the day and be making money (with night diff I might add) when I was already up? Sounds great right? I was wrong. Then I got on with the IRS again what I've wanted since High School and able to move out of a dead end area into one that would give me lots of experience in the systems that I would need to move up in the company. then i got engaged, then my unit turned into the unit from hell, then married. then extra hellish unit. then I got a grade raise and went from seasonal to perm but I'm still on nights. and now we are here. I mean I know everything happens for a reason and I have to think that if I'm moving up in the IRS so quickly that this is where I'm supposed to be but a part of me almost wishes I had asked Andy to wait and gone on a mission. I wonder where I would've gone and how I would've done and what I could've learned and who I could've helped and all that. As it is I feel like I'm in a rut. I'm constantly pissed off. Andy and I have some of the stupidest fights on a regular basis. Everything that I used to find cute and fun about him pretty much just annoys me at this point. I haven't seen any of my old friends in a very long time. I pretty much have no chance of seeing them for a while cuz of my stupid work schedule. I don't go to school. I don't have a kid, I don't do anything. I stay up doing nothing until 7 am then sleep on the couch til 1230 get up shower go get lunch go to work come home watch TV til 3 toss and turn in bed til 4 get up and start all over again. I haven't been to church since July making me a terrible example to my family. I mean I went thru the whole thing to be married somewhere where they couldn't be and went thru all that turmoil to become inactive the week after? Hell we could've gotten married wherever and went thru a year later. When I was more ready. at least then maybe we'd still be going to church. What incentive will my sister have to want to ever make it to the temple? or my mom or even my dad? none. And if I don't step up I know that someday I will have to answer for that. I know that they are all their own people and have their agency but I want to know that I did everything I could to show them the true happiness that could be found. and I'm not. That peace and happiness that I once had feels like it was a hundred years ago. Lately all I feel is contentious and angry. At everyone. I'm pissed at Andy for being so damn complacent and not having any motivation to even follow thru on anything that we once talked about. I feel like I have to punish him and yell and threaten to get anything done. And I'm taking second place to the damn video games again. which causes my blood to boil. I'm mad at my friends for moving on and living their lives and mostly I'm just mad at myself. I haven't changed. I'm still the fucked up little weirdo form High school. I'm unhappy with myself and the direction that my life has taken but I'm too damn lazy to do a thing about it. I had all these plans of college and friends and not living paycheck to paycheck and not being fat and out of shape and doing something with my life and instead here I sit. I don't know why I thought I was ready for any of this. But I'm also too damn stubborn to admit I was wrong. So instead I'll go on being miserable and lashing out at people I love and not actually saying what's wrong til it boils over in an overreacted manner and then try and clean up the pieces possibly ruining things in the process.

anyway now that I have publicly verbally beaten myself up I still feel like shit but I'm finally kinda tired. I'm going to watch spongebob and fall asleep on an uncomfortable couch for 3 or 4 hours only to wake up to this mess again. Hopefully things will get better with the holidays and such but I fear that even Christmas(my most beloved of all holidays) can't help me feel too much better. I'm hoping that I get to hang out with Charla and Lana the day after Christmas. I usually feel better after talking to them. Charla may get a random text today cuz I can talk to her about absolutely nothing and feel better. I love that about her. And I'll work my butt off at work in hopes of getting off review quickly and beginning the process of rejection for new internal jobs now that I am much more picky and will only accept perm day 5's (or above) and try and figure everything out one thing at a time.

No one said it would be easy. They only said it would be worth it.

The (abridged) life of a swing shift zombie

So I've been nelecting my blog for quite some time. Since very few people read it (that I know about) I don't feel too bad except that I like keeping it up as a sort of journal. I will justy give a breif overveiw of what has been going on:

1. I got a new job at work. I move from a clerk to a Tax Examiner. (yay) I love it I have my own cubicle (or condo as they are affectionatly called in my building) It's awesome. there a few problems Like the two people trying to rip our unit apart but over all I love it. My manager isn't a complete power hungry moron. She's actually quite good. And I moved from a gs 4 to a gs 5. For those of you not familliar with government pay scales that basically amounts to 120 buck more a paycheck after taxes. And I went from seasonal to perm. Meaning I won't have to worry about furlough. I'm still on swings but I'm learning a lot of specialized things that may help me move to days eventually.
2. The broncos are 8-5. They are the first place wild card in the afc right now. (WOOO!) We have only the cheifs the raiders and the eagles to go before the end of the season. and if we win all those games then we should stay asa the first place wild card to go and at least make it to the playoffs (something that hasn't been done since '98 with Elway I believe) I'm super excited. Oakland and Kc although they are division games (which are notoriously hard)0souldn't present much of a problem. Those teams have been struggling for the last few years and they are both home games. and philly is up and down. So we'll see what happens. Cross your fingers for me.
3. I got my laptop. It took almost 3 weeks and a lot of call ing a screaming and they didn't even get the whole order right (thankd tigerdirect.com for the shittiest service I've ever recieved) but it's here and awesome. I wish I woulda bought one earlier.

On anouther note: My winter insomnia combined with swing shift is making life Hell on earth. I hate not being able to sleep til 6 or 7 am and then having to get up at 1230pm for work. woo. So there may be many updates to this blog bassed on the afore mentioned insomnia and the new laptop that needs some loving. that is all.

5-0! You wanna call this luck?

I realize I've missed posting about a few big games but I'll catch up everyone who reads this-me.



First game-well third but first one I'm talking about. Broncos Vs Oakland Raiders. I had this thing going with a lady at work who was convinced that Jamarcus Russel-with his 35.2% completion rate( I mean really if he is your starter then what kinda player is your 2nd string quarterback? 15%? and third string? 1%?!).- and the Oakland Raiders could Defeate Kyle Orton and the Broncs. I almost wish I woulda put money on it like she wanted. but I didn't cuz in a fair bet you have to have at least a small chance of winning. and she didn't. and The Broncos took the game 23-3. 23-3?! We made touchdowns you made a single Field goal. that is all. Woo tough Raiders... Jamarcus Russel threw 2 picks(or interceptions) in the game. little hint-Oakland isn't wearing white and if a not your player catches it it doesn't count on your completion percent. Here are the highlights from youtube( property of the NFL)



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9I03-KirmFM



Also Josh McDaniels made a record here. First rookie coach to go 3-0! WOO!!!!





Game 2( or 4) Dallas Cowboys. Ok I'll admit this game did have me worried. A lot. There are 5 cowboy fans at work. 5! and just me for the broncos. so This game was really important for Denver to win. at least for me I waited the whole game for something. anything. But the Game was just really close. I kid you not I almost peed a little when it was 10-10 int he 4th. But then the highlight of the game came with Brandon Marshall's amazing catch with 2 minutes left in the game . here is the video



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kka_98iAgLs&feature=related



He Caught the ball out of the Dallas players hands, broke two tackles and took on 7 Dallas guys for 51 yards single handed and came out on top to put the score at 17-10 Broncos. That's skill. I don't care anyone says that's skill then came the last 5 seconds of the game. Dallas on the 2 yard line with on 4th and goal with not their first but second try to tie this game up and send it into overtime and Tony Romo threw against Champ Baily. Twice. Both Times Champ came out on top-Hey it's in the name-and the cowboys went home 2-2 and We moved to 4-0! maybe the 5 sacks Romo got in the game messed with his head a little too much. Or maybe the broncos Have just found their groove.



Also side note. one of my coworkers was not happy about that game. She and her uncle made a bet and because Dallas lost she has to get a Denver tattoo. The moral of the story. Don't be to confident



Week 5. New England. This game also Scared me a little. But we had a secret weapon. Josh McDaniels was Bill Belicheks Assistant For many years. He knows the Pat's. He knows Tom Brady he knows. Again this came down to the very end and even went into overtime but Broncos Clenched it in OT 20-17! WOO 5-0!!! (Youtube doesn't have highlights up yet. I'll add them when they do.) But the coolest part of this game was that after the game the entire Coaching staff of New England came over to congratulate McDaniels. including some players and Bill Belichek. That's Classy. I have a little less hatred in my heart for the Patriots now. I still think Tom Brady Is stuck up but The rest of the team well they changed my mind a little yesterday.

5-0 Yes the only other teams in the NFL that can say that are the colts, giants, vikings and BRONCOS!!! The last time we went 5-0 was in '98 and we won the Superbowl. just something to consider...

Anyway week six Monday Vs San Diego on ESPN or on NFL.com then click on the game at the top of the screen. Should be exciting. I'm posting the prediction that it'll be another close game and giving it a 55-45 percent chance we'll win if we can keep our heads. But who knows. With football it's all up in the air

Go Broncs!

I would just like to point out that the broncos are 2-0. Yes. they won their first 2 games! there are only 9 teams that can say that right now. yes 9 and the broncos are among them!!!!! No one expected us to win 2 games total all year what with a new coach and new QB. Lets see how long we can keep up this winning streak guys! WOOO!!!!!!!!

Brandon Stokley's awesome catch

I'll get back to life later.. someday when I have time to post stuff. but I have to post this

As you all know-and if you don't I'll tell you anyway- at the end of last year the Broncos fired their head coach Mike Shanahan-which was dumb- and hired Josh Mcdaniels-the {former} head offensive corodenator of the New England Patriots- as the Head coach. Mcdaniels then tried to get Matt Cassel-the patriots 2nd string QB who was now a free agent- without telling any of the broncos players. Jay cutler- the broncos {former} qb- got mad and forced a trade with the Chicago Bears to leave us with Kyle Orton *makes raspberry noise* After a rough preseason of 1-3- but we shut out the cardinals the team that lost the Superbowl last year. 19-0 woo!!!- We opened up with a game against the Bengals. At the last 40 seconds of the game we were down one point in what looked like a crushing blow to open the season and then this happened. you'll have to watch to find out. it's only 40 seconds long


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K56C-roYUOA

Dear blog

I've been terrible about updating you. I'll leave a short "appetizer" update then hopefully in a few weeks get around to catching up.

love Myndi

Things I've learned from planning a wedding:

1) Don't put things off
2) DON'T put things off!!!!
3) No matter what you say people ARE going to make you pick/ask for your input on every freaking little thing except the few things you actually care about
4) never try and avoid any part of it.
5) just accept that you won't be wearing jerseys like you wanted in March instead of July and get a wedding dress so you don't have to freak about if it's done yet
6) it'll cost the same if not more to get your dress altered. Be prepared
7) once you freak out about 3 times and yell at everyone-even tho you feel kinda bad- people start leaving you alone about stupid little things like 'Is this color of blue OK?' just cuz they don't wanna be yelled at again. but you gotta actually melt down. not just cry.
8)Everybody you meet will have suggestions and hints and advice. unless you really like the idea do what you want. The people telling you stuff have either A) already had their wedding or 2) will have one someday. This one is yours. Accept their input nicely and non committally and then forget it.
9) Understand that you will be super sick of everyone remotely related to you by the end. but no worries you can tell them to leave you alone after the fact for at least a month and make it stick. ;)
10) also know that it's for the families. They will take over and take your idea of what you wanted (i.e. a small BBQ reception in jeans and football attire) and turn it into something completely different (i.e. a formal wedding complete with dress, tux, 700 invites sent out, flowers dresses and all that foofy crap) it does no good to dwell. keep a few things that you won't budge on (i.e. I am wearing chucks and at 8:01 pm I will no longer be at the reception, and there won't be anything even resembling a line) and deal with the rest. it's only a few hours then you never have to do this again
11) if you are planning on having a wedding on one day and a reception on another you need to set ground rules and be kinda men about it . Rules such as if you call either of us before 1:30 pm on Saturday or even attempt to present either of us with any kind of problem I will be forced to hurt you in ways that would make jigsaw look tame.
and last but not least
12) it'll be over soon. just remember. it's like 10 hours of you life. one day of work. Just breathe and count down the days. (we're at 3). Then you'll never have to do this again. in and out


Also on another note Saturday (Aug 8) I was endowed in the Bountiful temple. It was supa awesome and I'll forever be grateful to the people who were there and especially Tara who took time out of her supa popular supa busy schedule to be there and help me out. with like everything. Thanks ya'll!

Now I've avoided life for long enough. I'll post more when I can breathe again

update number 2.. or 3.. i'm not sure

Updates!

• Our house loan fell thru. Credit scores we're good enough to get everything on the loan. So we had to get about $4200 for a housing loan plus about $1700 for closing costs or wait. It's ok tho cuz...
• We got an apt. A really nice apt. for a really good deal. It's a two bedroom 962 sq ft with a fireplace and balcony(on the top floor. moving is going to be a bitch. lol so if any of you strong people wanna come help out on June first it'd be a good workout...)cable, central air washer and dryer hookups included and pet friendly. and they had a great deal going on. our Apt is normally (approx) $769 a month without the added insurance and water/garbage/sewage fee. our rent every month is $716 after everything! yay for good luck. Andy moves in on June first and I'll be there Aug 14th. ;)
• We got our invite pics done. and we should have the invites soon. Thank you so very much Audry!

Well that's about it. yay!

I'm getting kinda bad at this game.

So I'm getting kinda bad at this Blogging game. and I'd like to say it's cuz I've been busy at work and planning a wedding and all that but... lol no truth is I'm actually just kinda lazy. *gasp* I know. I'll wait while you catch your breath ........................................................................................................................................................
ok all better? lol I'll go on now. so we really haven't done a whole lot as far as..anything. lol I'll give a quick run down of everything I've done in the last month worth mentioning:

• We managed to call the Draper temple and and reserve a room at 2 pm on Aug 14th.
• We decided that like a formal reception is kinda a big hassle and between our families we'd prolly end up hurting someones feelings so I think we're doing a BBQ instead.
• and We've talked about needing to get pics done.

yeah so not a whole lot in the wedding dept. we gotta get a move on. I think next Tuesday after pay day we're going to go start our home application and get that going. and hopefully sometime in the next few weeks after my sunburn and cold sore go away we can do pics and start making invites. (btw anyone who hasn't given me their address and wants an invite you should prolly do it. you can post it or email me at nefariousgrl3@gmail.com or you can call or text me or facebook. lol ) Woo! we are so lazy...

As far as the life section the only things worth mentioning are as follows:

• I read the biography of Miley Cyrus
• Went to see the Hannah Montana Movie with my mom and Andy-yes he sat thru it for me. with my mom in an awkward twist of events. I know he's a keeper ;). Greatest. Movie. Involving. Hannah. Montana. To. Date. lol I really liked it as cheesy and stupid as it was
• And I've but putting in 9 and 10 hour days at work To try and fill up whats called credit at work. hat that means is that i can work up to 24 hours at some point in time and then I can use that like leave basically. so that in Aug when I go to take 4 or 5 days off, if I have a full credit of 24 hours-they won't let you do more.- and Some comp-which is basically the same as credit but you can have up to 80 hours and if you don't use it in like 18 months or 2 years or something it turns into overtime. credit just chills basically forever-I won't have to touch my annual leave so i can save it for Vegas in Nov. Woo!
• And I decided Fridays are going to be very boring at work. I hang out with 3 people for the most part: Shantel, Sara, and Daniel. Well Shantel only works Mon, Tues, and Wed. Sara only works Mon., Tues., and Thur. and Daniel. the only one who works Fridays just got furloughed for about a month. I may need to take back up smoking just to have friends for the next month

Yeah. so not a whole lot. hopefully someday I'll have more to post.

housing update.

We went to the bank yesterday. We got preapproved for about 120k for a house loan. YAY! next step is to give America first $400 so they will start the application process and give us a solid number

I realized...

I pretty much just realized that there is no proposal post. lol it's nothing to exciting but everyone keeps asking so I'll post it.

Feb 14th happened to be Saturday this year. which was nice. So we went to Toad's(formerly mulligans) with Andy's parents, little sister, older sister and her live in boyfriend/soon to be husband -mostly known as Paul- earlier in the afternoon. OK like about 5. we ate some pizza and played games and mini golf and stuff like that. it was fun.

*side note: Andy Erin(his older sister) Paul and I all played this nascar racing game and I beat all of them. yes even my gamer boyfriend. it was an exciting day*

Then Andy had reservations for us at Goodwood on Riverdale at 8. so we headed down there and had dinner. it was nice. After we finished Andy had tickets for a movie that he"picked out just for you" but he wouldn't tell me what it was. so we went to the megaplex. the movie turned out to be he's just not that into you. great movie btw. then we went back to my house and did our normal sit outside in the car and talk til 5 am thing. during the course of said talkage Andy goes. "where do you see this going?" and we talked about our future and how everything that we can think about involves the other person. so it wasn't really official but it was? i dunno how to explain it

Andy told his family sometime during the next week. cuz they are all open and stuff like that. and so that was no big. something like one of his parents asked if there was a wedding in the future and he said yes. nothing too... huge. Well throughout the course of the week via text(welcome to the 21st century) we kinda decided that this wedding thing that was in the future should be in the near future like the this year or early next year future. so then we had to tell my parents. which there is a whole 'nother blog about lower. so I'll skip that. long story short: I thought they would freak and was scared to death. they were totally all for it.

That was like the Saturday after valentines. so like the 21st i think. that day we had gone up to this ring shop in Logan called s.e. needam's (i highly recommend it. they were so friendly and upfront. and if you go. use Andy and i''s name. we'll get a free dinner certificate) and had picked out a ring cuz we were going to have the ring at dinner with my family so it was like. um so this has already been decided we'd like it if you don't fight us every step of the way. but it needed to be sized cuz i have big man hands. they said it would be done Monday night.

we couldn't go get it Monday cuz we both work nights, Tuesday we went to see the draper temple open house so we didn't make it up there that day. so Wednesday we went back up to Logan to pick it out. so we're driving back and I look at Andy and go. "even tho it's already decided you should humor me and do the whole down on one knee thing" and he goes "OK." so we went to a park and he humored me. that's pretty much the whole story. i posted a pic of said ring:

this is just the "engagement" part. there is a band that goes under and has some more stones in it. I'll post a pic of the completed thing in Aug when i get it ;) but yeah. that's pretty much it.

stuff

so I have been neglecting my blog for the last little while.. mostly cuz other things have been going on. but i have like 15 minutes so I'll give a quick overview of what's been going on

• things at work have calmed down. It's not like it once was but it's not nearly like it was either

• wedding stuff is getting started. the farther i get into it the better eloping sounds. :/ but our colors are like a bright dark blue like this and yellow like this. Yeah.

• I'm trying to qualify for a house. or we. whichever way it'll work.

yeah pretty boring. anywho I'm off to fill out paperwork so the bank can tell me whether or not we should look for a house or an apt.

yeah. pretty boring.

Can someone please explain to me...

so taking a break from all the wedding stuff (to which I will get back to posting shortly.) but can someone please explain to me how because i am a white Mormon i cannot be offended by things but almost anything i say can be twisted into something that makes me sound like a neo Nazi anti Semite? I mean honestly. when you laugh at what i say that voids your right to be offended. you don't get to go crying to the manager 2 days later cuz me and my friends have fun at work and still produce as much or more than you do. and don't even try and pull the race card. I will freak out. as a Mexican from Mexico city and a woman who is slightly black you can say whatever they hell you want? you can call me a honky and whitey and laugh when i say I'm too white to dance well and make all kinds of jokes about how Mexicans are getting weaker cuz TVs are getting lighter and other crazy race jokes I won't even bother to post but when we are all saying that and I make a joke about not being able to like cornbread cuz I'm the wrong color you get to laugh and then decided after emailing everyone in the unit that is not me and my three friends that that really offends you and that I've been saying racist comments all along without ever telling me that it offends you? fuck that. I apologized and took this one. this one time. because as a Caucasian person I cannot win. so go back to your minority meeting or whatever and chalk another one up. but let me hear a single race comment again from ANYONE and I will walk straight down to the union and file a grievance. I won't even go to my manager. I'll jump so far ahead it won't even be funny.

and on this same topic lets not be throwing religion into the mix. when you ask about my religion and I answer you in a very polite respectful way(even f the answer is I don't know.) that gives me the right to ask about your religion and get answered in the same way. When you talk about your religion semi politely (actually I would call it haughtily but whatev) with the other catholics that then gives me the right to talk about my religion politely( we weren't even semi polite about it. we were polite as hell dammit) with the other Mormons. you can't say that me telling a few people about the draper temple offends you. if anyone should be offended it should be me. asking if we sacrifice our firstborns naked in the temple if really offensive. and implying that the temple is a giant orgy and the place where we brainwash people Is really really offensive. but even if I brought that up it would get thrown out cuz I'm a Mormon which gives me no rights at all it appears. again I apologized to save my job. On this one I was for sure not in the wrong. but let me hear a single word about religion again. or anything even close to it. I'll march straight down to the union and file a grievance and freak out. In fact you know that background you have on your computer of Jesus bleeding and dying? That's pretty offensive to me. Push me.

and this one wasn't directed directly at me but it still pissed me the hell off. Don't sit around and talk about how big the average penis is and measure it out on a ruler and stick the ruler in your mouth and make jokes and talk about your hysterectomy and cramps and a whole slew of other things then go complain because two people talked about Brest feeding their child and claim you were "just trying to protect the only man in the unit" OK lets back up. we sit 4 seats away from Heber. You and your group sit across from him. We were talking about a natural thing and not even in a vulgar way. in a natural way. You were talking about blow jobs. When you ask him if what we are talking about offends him and he says oh i just tune them out that means "I'm 50 and a big boy. I've got this under control" it doesn't mean "please overstep your boundaries and go complain because you don't like these people who I do like and then use me to hide behind as your reason" I'm sorry. but Heber has 10 kids. he's familiar with breastfeeding. if anyone's comments were offending him I'd put money that it woulda been yours before ours.

so in conclusion I am becoming a deaf mute at work now. all communication that is not necessary for me to do my job will be kept to email and text. let me hear a single word about anything mentioned above and I will get so loud that not only will the union hear about it but also the lead, manager, and everyone else i can get to listen. Fuck. that. Tell me if I'm offending you. don't hide behind someone and don't wait 2 fucking days to decide that I'm offending me. and don't expect me to read your goddamn mind. and don't be surprised when half the unit doesn't come to potlucks or anything else and we get promoted first. you just can't produce the work and therefore you need an excuse. try and find a way to make anything i do from now on offensive. but if this doesn't get dropped today then be prepared. You have just created about 4 offend Nazis. anything that could even remotely and abstractly be twisted into something offensive to anyone will now be reported.(I'm just worried about the shite Muslims. they could be working here and what you said really offends me because it could offend them They are God's children too and we need to be sensitive to their needs.) Push me. I don't lose shit like this. you made this bed. now sleep in it.

quick post before work

so this is just a short post to tell everyone and their dog to repent now! I'm engaged and we told my family and they didn't flip like i thought they would! AHHHH!!!! It's a sign of the Apocalypse!

But yeah so I'm engaged. Before you ask. he hasn't done the whole down on one knee thing. that should happen this week sometime after we go pick up the ring and then I'll post all about that... at some point in time.

and we told my parents. although they are sad that they can't come in the temple with me and be there they respect that this is what i want. it went much better than expected. I'll keep updates on that too.

yeah so there ya go

it's been a while.. also I need to vent

so as some of you may or may not know about a week ago Andy and I came to a very much life changing decision (although not "official" yet so...) now I'm sitting here really trying to understand what this means. so I'm going to blog. if any of ya'll have any kind o advice/ suggestions feel free to leave them.

Kk so basic overview: on valentines day after we went and did all that hoopla Andy and I had a discussion about where we saw this(our relationship) going. and both kinda came to the conclusion that both of us see this ending in marriage. so it was basically a proposal without the whole "proposal" thing.-thus the it's not official part of this- so we've been talking about it a lot. which is where all this stems from.

After the intital excitement of the whole deal it kinda hit me. oh shit. now I have to tell my family. let me give you a little background on my family(in bulleted form)

• my parents anniversary is may 7 1988, my birthday is Nov 5 1988. go ahead count those. there are only 7 months... yeah and I wasn't early
• my dad is pretty anti Mormon for the most part despite what he claims. his actions say it all
• my dad has a wow problem. and not the computer game type o wow problem. the type Andy and I both have struggled with in the past
• my dad is stubborn. he hasn't been to church in years, when he does go he bitches and moans the whole time and causes much contention and discord and refuses to believe that someone here on this earth knows more than him and that "hocus pocus 'visions' and 'feelings' " actually have truth to them

aka even if we offered to wait and give my family time to clean up so that they could be there with us(which was my first suggestion. I would give anything for my family to be there. It's just not ) it wouldn't happen. and I'm not getting married outside the temple. it's that important to me and I know it is the right thing to do. so basically we have to tell my family our plans, make them feel included, explain our reasons in a way that makes sense to them and that they can understand and accept and not let them find out third party. oh and then plan and execute a meet the in laws and then a wedding. haha I'll trade anyone for the stress of finals right now straight across ;) not really but you know just trying to lighten the mood for myself. back off

so basically the only way we've come up with for telling my fam is to wait until Andy has a ring and then have him ask my dad for permission in a 'I'm-asking-for-permission-but-it's-going-to-happen-anyway' kinda way. and if they do by chance find out third party (which with any luck they won't.) We'll just fess up and explain our reasoning for waiting. but only cuz Andy doesn't go for the whole eloping idea ;) again. joke. kinda i mean my family isn't stupid for the most part. they know it's coming. I'm just hoping things will go smoothly enough that my entire side can live with it. cuz i know i will always have a hard time dealing with the fact that the only people there from my side will be my grandma maybe and a few friends also maybe. but with great sacrifice comes great reward... that's what I keep telling myself.

yeah so that's about it

I stole this from one of the random blogs I randomly read

So I was blog surfing and found this fun post. so I'm doing it. lol



YOUR REAL NAME:Myndi Greenwell



WITNESS PROTECTION NAME:(mother & father's middle name)Kay Steven



NASCAR NAME:(first name of your mother's dad, father's dad)Jerry(is it bad I don't remember my mom's dad's name? I'll fill it in later)



STAR WARS NAME:(the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name)Gremy



DETECTIVE NAME:(favorite color, favorite animal)Black Squirrel



SOAP OPERA NAME:(middle name, city where you were born)Marie Ogden



PORN NAME:(1st pet and 1st street you grew up on)Coco 6600 south?



SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd fav color, fav drink, add "THE" to the beginning)The yellow dew



FLY NAME:(first 2 letters of 1st name, last 3 letters of your last name)mygre



GANGSTA NAME:(fav ice cream flavor, fav cookie)sherbet suga (i left the r off to make it more gangsta)



YOUR RAPPA NAME: (first 3 letters of real name plus izzle)mynizzle

YOUR GOTH NAME:(black, and the name of one of your pets)Black hunter. I like it

A7x concert. (I know I'm way late)

So I just realized that I haven't posted about the a7x concert yet (I prolly forgot cuz I don't have any pictures) But here goes.

This time instead of having a big group of friends to meet out there and all that it was just Andy and I. We got there about 530 and they opened up the doors at 6. I got us seats for this one cuz they were the same price and I'm not all about mosh pits anymore. so we had seat and were just watching everyone file in. Then my friend Elizabeth came in and she had GA-aka the mosh pits- so I walked down and talked to her for a minute. Then the concert started.

The first band was Saving Abel. They weren't great. weren't bad. but weren't that great either. I only knew one song by them(addicted) and not even really well. Yeah. not a whole lot on them.

The papa roach came out. I love Love LOVE papa roach! And they put on a great show! They did some of their earlier stuff (blood brothers, last resort, broken home) an some newer stuff (getting away with murder, scars) and Jacoby Shaddix-the lead singer- was out and wandering about the crowds and up in the seats and stuff. it was awesome! at one point He was like honestly maybe 12 rows away from us! awesome!

Then A7x came out! which was slightly disappointing! Cuz I thought they were headlining. Turns out they were co headlining with buck cherry. ugh.

But they put on an awesome show. They did some of all their stuff. unholy confessions, bat country, almost easy. all the popular stuff. It was good. Then we left cuz... yeah.. buckcherry? no

The coolest past of the whole thing was that slc was the kick off for the whole tour! yay! yeah. haha and I only got one pic from the concert that my friend Elizabeth took. so here it is

Ok well blogger hates me so it's going to have to stay at the top. but yeah there ya go

First day of Fediness

Yesterday was my first day of IRS. And although I managed to piss off a lead almost immediately(I seem to have that effect on people) it was pretty good.



First thing we did was get badges so we could get in everyday. Already this place was so much more organized that IAP(aka the files) I had to wait almost a month to get one there. so basically everyday they lost 20 minutes of their time and mine cuz I'd have to wait for a manager to sign me in and out. Grr. There was a big line and you signed like 93 papers and then boom. badge.



Then they put us in this training room. There were like 12 people too many so we had to o to the break room and get chairs. By this time I had found my friends shantel and daniel so we all sat in the back corner(the trouble corner as my friend daniel so eloquently named it. but we'll get to that later)



Then the training. there is a thousand page manual on how to take mail out of an envelope correctly. and the envelope is already cut open. I'm very serious. My friends and I were making fun of the training and kept laughing.. and trying to stifle said laughs. Thus the reason we took on the moniker the trouble corner.

then we went home after 8 hours. basically it's a monkey job. But I'm ok with that. $15 an hour almost great benefits. not to hard. Dream come true. and it's at night so no need to get up way stinkin early or stay up way to stinking late

Things I learned from telemarketing

So I'm officially done call centering. (Yes that's a real word) And even though I've only done it for like 6 weeks I've learned a lot. It also makes me have a great appreciation for anyone who does this for more than 5 minutes.

But I learned a lot

• Don't call to have something done if you are in a hurry. I'm sorry But if your blackberry isn't receiving emails like it should it's going to take more than 5 minutes to fix. It takes more than 5 minutes to even pull up all the systems that I need to use to fix your problem. You yelling at mean because you have a meeting in 5 minutes and you've called in 4 times to get this fixed already will not make anything work faster. and maybe if the other three times you called in you had more than 5 minutes this woulda been fixed.
  
• Don't freak out cuz I ask you for the safety things. number name and last 4 of the ssn or passcode. these are put on for your safety. Don't yell at me because I am asking that. It takes 2 fucking minutes and this prevents you from identity theft or unwanted changes to your account. I'm sorry this world doesn't have 2 minutes to spare. but maybe you should all just chill out. Cuz if I didn't ask and it wasn't really you you'd call back freaking out about the changes and accuse us of not protecting your stuff
  
• If you call freaking out about a bill that is $988 cuz you took your iphone and Mexico and used it for a full month and didn't bother to ask if there was a charge or something to use it out of the country and I offer, cuz I'm nice and don't have to these are valid charges, to help you out and give you $200 off don't escalate the call to my manager trying to get more. He'll prolly not even offer to give you the $200 I was willing to give you. Don't be greedy. Take it and say thank you
  
• Don't call and argue with me. It's my job to know how to fix your phone. And believe it or not you are not the first person to have this problem. It's true. I don't care how much you argue with me I'm not putting you thru to tech unless you try all the things I tell you. including turning your phone off and on again. I don't care how much you think you know about 60% of the time power cycling-turning the phone off and on. yes there is a technical name for it- the handset(phone) fixes the problem. I'm resending stuff over the air and a whole mess o other things you don't know about or understand. But you know. maybe I'm wrong. I do this all day and am paid for it and you called me for help but maybe I'm wrong.
  
• Also don't try and pull a fast one on me. I don't care that I don't speak Spanish. No means no in English too. and I can hear you, and cries of "Aye Papi" accompanied by a foot stamp usually don't mean yes.
  
• And don't let your 14 year old call in. she doesn't know shit and will argue with me about everything. I don't have time to deal with this. I got other things to do. (the last two bullets before this one(and this one) were from the same call. ask me about it someday)
  
• Don't argue with me for something ridiculous. I don't care if you've been with us for 20 years I cannot give you 5 free iphones or turn an iphone into a prepaid account. or take the data plan off the iphone. or fix your problem in 5 minutes. or put a verizon phone on our network. I can't even do that for myself and I work here.. I'm sorry you must've missed it earlier when I introduced myself. My name is Myndi. Not Jesus. There are some things I just can't do. I'm sure if I came to your accounting job and asked you to make sure I got $750,000 on my tax return you couldn't do it. No matter what. Same principal.
  
• Don't make vague threats. You don't know where I live or even my name prolly. I tell you at the first but most of you will call me Wendy Grenwald. I on the other hand can see your address phone number, ssn, credit report, plan, how much you owe us, and a whole plethora of other things that can be used to make your life a living hell. Don't push me.
  
• Do be nice. I am more than willing to work with you and help you out as much as I can when you are nice and gracious. 9 times out of 10 you are calling us about valid charges that I do not need to adjust. but I will for nice people. anyone who calls in yelling at me about The IVR or whatev I'm not going to help you as much. It's the difference between 500 extra rollover minutes and a $50 credit. I'm serious
  
• If you are getting exceptionally good service do mention it. I sit there for 8 hours a day getting told I'm an incompetent fool. It's nice to hear "I've never had such good service." or "You are doing a great job explaining a difficult principal"
  
• Do have a sense of humor. I joke with you. Don't be a wet blanket. It makes me feel like a jackass for trying
  

And above all remember:

• There is a human on the other end. I am not a robot. I am an actual person. I do make mistakes and it is normal. you make mistakes too. I've never talked to you before this and I'll prolly never talk to you again. I did not make this mistake. I'll help you fix it. But I'm not here to be your verbal punching bag, sexual thrill, or therapist. I'll be pleasant and amiable but don't over do it. I don't wanna hear about lady and coco and your other 5 dogs. I don't wanna hear about the best porn you've ever seen. And I sure as hell don't wanna hear about how your dad died and now it disturbs you to hear his fucking phone ring and now you are demanding things be done that can not be done and will not be done. I don't care what is going on in your life. you have no right to treat another human like that. Ever. I won't do jack shit for you if you call in and demand it. I have my own problems. My dad might have just died too. but I'm not allowed to tell you that. There are people from all walks of life on the other end of that phone. from the 20 year old college student that has to take this til she gets thru accounting to the new father that now has to provide for 2 more people other than himself. to the newly divorced mother with one son in jail, one facing jail time and a retarded daughter. Don't be an ass. chill the fuck out.

FINALLY!

This is just a quick post to let everyone and their dog know that as of Feb 2nd I'll go from Teleperformance's micromanaging bull shit to the IRS's. ! I start Feb 2nd as a 4 seasonal in receipt and control. It's a swing shift. It's awesome! yeah. but for now I have t minus 8 more days of my shit job. So I should get going to it! but yeah! I'll post more later.

Ellie's first crash

So my sister just got into her first fender bender. it's OK. She's fine. Just a little shook up so if any of you see her or talk to her help her calm down but I don't think any of you will see her. I don't know. but I don't think so This reminds me of my first fender bender.

I was 16 and I had been driving for about 6 months. I drove a 92 chev pickup that was on it's last leg. Full sized Pickup with a 4 inch trailer hitch on the back. I had just left Carl's Jr on Harrison after getting food and I backed into a little tiny green ford. Come to find out the ford belonged to the bank's president! (there is a bank right next to Carl's) So here I was some sixteen year old kid with a POS truck and I backed into a brand new ford. Put the trailer hitch right thru the bumper. Then the bank pres came out. He was a nice enough guy and he took care of everything. he just got my insurance info and called and all that. Then I had to call my dad. (I had already called my mom not knowing what to do)

Let me explain. My dad is a good guy. But his temper is about half as long and twice as violent as mine. Things just set him off. I was scared shitless. My dad just checked to make sure everything had been taken care of and went. Did you learn from this? and I just nodded. He said OK. then no harm done. He's surprisingly cool about fender benders. Now when I totalled the truck. different story. but the little ones. he makes sure everything gets done and you learn form it (insurance goes up you have to pay for any body work) but there is no yelling or anything.

So yeah. My insurance went up and all but other than that it was a good learning experience. Hopefully it will be for Ellie too.

it's been a while.

haha so this is a catch up post cuz I haven't posted for a while.

Holidays were great. I got to spend most all of them with my favorite guy in the whole world. It was awesome. Christmas eve I had to work. I came home and my family had gotten Andy's number out of my phone number out of my phone and invited him over. so I came home and he was there. which was awesome. kinda. I kinda worry about him being around my family when I'm not there. but I trust him... so yeah.

Then Christmas morning I got up at 3 am to make my parents gift.. well put it together.. and then I did the secret Santa thing I'd been working on for a few months. Then I slept again for like 3 hours. when I was woken up again to do the whole Christmas morning thing.

OK. Let me explain. My family has the worst luck around the holidays. something major always ALWAYS craps out and we end up having to buy a new.. whatever it is. Transmissions, fridges, stove, dryer something like that always goes out about the end of nov early dec. this year it was the washer. so my parents had to buy a new washer. My mom was basically setting us up for only getting pants for Christmas. In a nut shell. anywho so me and Ellie decided to work more and such and kinda play Santa this year. my parents had no idea. so I moved everything out about 3 am when I was setting up the fire pit we got for my parents. My mom and dad were pretty much like. wow. (OK they both started crying. which I hate. but it was a good cry) so it was pretty cool to be able to do that for my family.

Then I got to go hang with Andy and his family. who I also love. They are so awesome! I love his house. I'm actually there now. Even when it is chaotic it's got a nice calm feeling to it. It's nice. for whatever reason-respect, trust, priesthood, or something else- I love the feeling and spirit around Andy's house. His brother is like so awesome! I love Jim and Amanda(older brother and sister in law) and their two kids are so cute! Lexi-his niece- is like 7 months old and she spend like an hour just opening one present. it was adorable! I love kids! his 2 year old nephew is also adorable! I love Clayton! He knows my name and likes to come talk to me til I poke him in the belly then he runs away laughing. and I love his older sister Erin. She is awesome. actually aside from him and his parents I believe she was the first person I met from his family. It was on the way to his little sister Kaycee's birthday party and she had pulled up just as I'd pulled up and she was so friendly. Despite the fact she had no fucking idea who I was. I even like Paul-her boyfriend she's marrying pretty soon cuz I can't spell the other word- who seems to be kinda... different. He's just kinda aloof. kinda like me. I think it's cuz he's not a member. of the church or the family quite yet. But he's cool. a little odd. but he's always been nice when I've seen. Kaycee is.. and 8 year old. but she is so funny. I like her. she's not sure about me I don't think... but she's still cool. I love his dad as well. Jim is a big teddy bear-which he is. I kinda imagine emmett off of twilight to be like him- his dad is too. He is so awesome. I think Andy has kinda explained the situation at my house to him a little. but he is always trying to teach me about the church without teaching me about the church. He's also a big gamer like Andy-but not quite as big a one as he is- and so he is always including me in their games. even tho I suck with a Capitol S. lol His mom is pretty awesome too. They are all so awesome! I still kinda feel a little out of place but I'm just like that for the most part. But I got to hang with them. The bad part was trying to drive home later.... but even that was kinda fun. Exhilarating even. lol but you know me. always the thrill seeker.

Then I had to work again New years eve-I hate being the new guy. getting all the shit shifts- but then when I got off everyone was at parties and such so Andy came over and I made eatable food and we watched meet the Spartans and prom night. it was really nice. ;) and I actually got a sober new years kiss from someone I care about. unlike the last few years. so that was good. and it was nice to be able to sit at my house. where I'm pretty comfortable. With the person I am most comfortable with and no one else to bother us. I can't wait til I move out and I can do that more often. I mean even now we are just chillin in his room doing our own thing and it's kinda nice. but his fam is still here. It's not like we're doing anything we shouldn't be and it's not like I don't love them.(as does he I'm sure) but it's just nice to get away you know? does any of that make sense? I Dunno. it does to me.. kinda

but yeah. since then I've pretty much just worked. Friday was Andy's birthday and so he had the day off. we went to Iggy's for dinner after I got off work and then went to see the unborn.

Iggy's was funny. It was good food but the service sucked. I mean really really sucked. There was a table near us that the people left about 830. and it was still unbused when we left at 945! I mean it wasn't like they were so busy they couldn't do it. They were just lazy. and a Knife was dropped on the floor near us.. like a steak knife... and 3 people kicked it out of the way instead of picking it up! who does that? lol

Then we went to see the unborn. SCARY AS FUCK! just a warning. I am a chicken. but this movie was scary. Poor Andy prolly still has no feeling in his arm. It's full of Jewish lore and old WWII stuff. but I don't deal with movies about debouks-evil spirits- and possession and such well. and this wasn't your normal blood and guts movie either. it was scary in the fact that it was actually creepy. We then went to wal marts and messed around and talked and stuff til like 4. then I went home and stayed up til like 6 when I could finally see stuff and get to sleep. I slept until about 10 when my parents woke me to see if I wanted to go to the movie and breakfast with them. again. my answer is always no. I then showered, changed, and went up to see Ellie at work. We went to lunch then I went home. played on facebook and addictinggames.com again and then I went to dinner with Andy's while family at Texas roadhouse. Andy's birthday is the 9th. His dad's is the 10th. they usually celebrate together I guess. which is what that was. I guess. Then we went to his brothers and played trivial pursuit. Then he and I sat in his car making shadow puppets and just being idiotic. It was really fun. I love being able to just be stupid with him. It's so nice.

now I'm sitting here watching him play wow and blogging. and listening to him on vent. which is a voice.. thingy. they use on wow. so I can listen and talk with him and his nerd friends-who prolly think I'm a bitch. and I'm ok with that- and blogging. lol that's pretty much it

I realize making vague threats doesn't do any good but...

ok So I know it's been a while since I've posted. Holidays, all that. I'll finish my catch up blog and post it later. this one is for me.

What the goddamn fuck does the government want? someone just Tell me and I'll fucking do it! I'm sick of fucking getting screwed over! I am an accounting major with 6 100 scores and a year of experience! Why the fuck am I having such a hard time getting my old job back? I fucking just want it back. I hate my current job. I could never see another at&t.. anything.. ever again and it wouldn't hurt my feelings one bit! and the only thing that keeps me going back is that they gave me a chance when no one else would. oh and the dependency on money thing everyone has.but what the hell!? I swear to god I don't get hired on to the irs this month and you will have to come visit me in federal prison. I don't fucking know what they want! I have jumped thru every hoop! It's the only job I have ever not been totally miserable at. I loved that job and I plan on staying there for the long haul if I could just fucking get hired! that's all I'm asking. Or even just a reason why I am not getting hired and lazy fucks I worked with in the past are! I'm sick of getting ass raped by the government! first this, then the whole unemployment thing, then this again! I think I'm getting somewhere and then they just bend me over and fuck me sideways again. I dunno. I so fucking frustrated at this point. Cause I'm just sitting here twiddling my damn thumbs in the dark waiting and hoping for something that at this point doesn't seem to ever be happening! I just want it back. I swear the people I work with are prolly so sick of hearing me talk about the files. one girl said "if you loved it so much why don't you go back?" I nearly took her head off(I apologized later) "It's not as easy as some lazyfucks make it!" I dunno why some people get everything handed to them on a silver platter. but I'm pretty sick of having to work for every inch I fucking get. I'm willing to do it. but not when I'm getting screwed over by morons. I just want some answers or results or something. this running in place shit is.. well just that. shit The only good thing that has happened in the last 4 months was Andy. that's pretty much it. if it weren't for him I would prolly would be in a fucking rubber room at this point. or dead. or in Canada. or something. I dunno. This was a pointless post about things that can never be answered or changed. I've tried being positive and saying there must be a reason I can't get this back. but for the love of god there is no reason at this point other than nothing fucking comes easy for me. SO I've basically given it a week. if I haven't heard anything in one week from tomorrow(the 9th Happy birthday baby lol your birthday is my cut off) then you'll all see me on the news on the 12th getting taken out by swat team or some shit like that. But I'll make it well known. that's all. This life game sucks. I wanna try again