yay for english!

I just got a 92% on my English test... I'm very excited... I'm well on my way to avoiding the final test... he he! I guess those five English classes did their job back in high school.... I also have 16 hours of keyboarding done.. which is freakin awesome since keyboarding is a freakin hard class... yeah but they are screwing all of us over Monday by taking away the advisers that know what the hell they are talking about and giving us one guy to teach everything from math to accounting to computer lit to English to correspondence.. and apparently he only knows how to do the keyboarding/computer lit part of it... so we'll see what happens.. yeah that's it

The Nightmare before Christmas in 3D

So I decided this picture was fun enough to merit a blog:


Andy and I went to see the Nightmare before Christmas in 3D last night. It was awesome! I hadn't see in since I was like 7(so like 13 years ago.. ) and I've forgotten how awesome it is! and then in 3D it was so much cooler! nothing really popped out but it made the whole thing more.. real.. And I was all about Andy singing like every song from the movie (there were only like 6 people in the theater including us and he was doing it quietly.. relax) cuz apparently that's all he listened to on his mission..(I dunno) but yeah... its awesome.. and then I decided we needed a pic of us in our dorky 3D glasses.. cuz I'm weird like that.. I also didn't have a pic of the two of us together... haha he prolly won't like that I posted this pic on myspace facebook and here but whatevs....so yeah it was awesome. I think it's only at the megaplex in Ogden until Friday but if you get a chance go see it! totally worth it... yeah that's it

venting my worries.. again..

so Friday is Halloween.. Andy and I got invited to his friends house for a party.. which is cool.. except these people are Partiers! I know they'll have alcohol and weed and prolly various other things that violate the word of wisdom there. Again which is fine.. I can't condemn anyone else's choice to have that around or use it... that would be hypocritical. but I'm also really worried... I dunno if I'm strong enough to resist..especially if Andy doesn't.. and it kinda doesn't sound like he is planning on it. I'm not going to stop him from making that choice. he's a big boy... but I really wish he wouldn't do it.. or treat it like it's no big deal.. I really do love him.. but this him.. I really don't ever wanna see him like he was when I first met him... I don't like inebriated Andy... I just don't.. I dunno.. this is me worrying about things that aren't really in my control...and rambling cuz I need to ramble...

To Borrow a phrase from my good friend Charla... The Church is true!

haha yeah gettin religious again. The Apocalypse is nigh! ;) lol

so today I came home from school and I saw on the top of the TV where any mail that is for not the person that got the mail is(if that makes sense.. so like if I get the mail.. any letters not for me I put there for the rest of the family to go thru and find their mail.. or if my mom gets it she does the same etc) this letter for me from IAP(my ex employer if any of you don't know) and I was kinda like "what?" cuz I haven't worked there since like Sept 30th when they pretty much paid all of us out completely.. or so I thought.. so i opened it and there was a check for the end of my benefit allowance that they used to pay us.. $266.69! I was like wow! that's just enough to pay my car payment and tuition for the month of November! which is awesome! I still woulda been OK had this not come but it woulda been really close(cuz I don't start at teleperformence til Nov 17th and therefore I won't start getting paid from there til like the 2nd week in Dec.. in theory) so this was really nice.. and dare I say.. a miracle... now I'll be just fine on funds until I start working again.. which is really nice... everything is starting to come back together after all this shit.. going thru all this with losing my job and unemployment not paying me and all that it's totally been worth it thus far because of all the things I've learned about myself and all the great testimony building experiences it's given me... and yeah.. that's about it... it prolly doesn't make sense to anyone else who reads it.. but it does to me and that's all that matters ;) lol jk.. kinda

sexdrive and the L word(mild cursing)

yeah so more confusion.. lol so I'm using this blog as my own personal vent/worry space. deal with it you three people that might actually read it ;)

K so last night was a very interesting night...well day in general...in the morning I went and helped Andy's brother and sister-in-law move. which was fun.. I got to prove that I'm not totally useless every once in a while ;) and I pretty much love his brother and sister-in-law and their two kids.. they are so friendly and awesome. Amanda is so much fun.. she helps me not to feel so out of place a lot, mostly cuz I think she knows what I'm going thru. I mean I love his parents and they've always been really awesome but I know that they are sizing me up to see if I am good enough for their son and all that fun stuff.. the same(in a lesser manner) from his brother and sisters.. I know it's normal and it totally happens tenfold and my house but yeah I've just never been good with that... but yeah. So anyway yeah so I helped them move in the morning until I had to go home and change for my grandma's 90th birthday open house.. so Andy took me back to my car and we were standing there talking and I said "OK I really have to go as much as I don't want to" and he said "and as much as I don't want you to" and I kinda stopped and went "what? did your shut up filter just shut off like mine is prone to doing" and he said "nope. go have fun" or something like that so I left and went to my grandma's thing(where he was the main attraction from anyone what talked to me... 'where's your guy?' 'where's this Andy we've heard so much about?' etc. none of my relativies actually cared about my life..mind you they all just wanted to see him.. which I find hilarious) and then afterword I called him and said "If I promise to get you home by 9 can I coax you out of your cave?" and he said "sure" and then we talked on the phone (which if I haven't mentioned he HATES!!!!) til I got to his house like 45 minutes later then we went to the junction and ate at Costa Vida and then went to see sexdrive(hilarious! btw!!) and there's this line in the movie where the main character says something like "you love me" to the main female lead (cuz he loves her and she loves him but neither will admit it) and stuff and one of the whole main themes of the movie is the main female lead won't tell the main male lead that she loves him cuz they are best friends and she doesn't want to ruin that and some lady in jail tells her to not be afraid of what could happen anyway so yeah so we were talking about the movie on the drive back and trying to figure out all the messages and stuff like we do and we got to that one about not thinking about what could happen and Andy goes "damn that stupid movie! I don't like that message" and i kinda go.."um....k?" and then we move on like we do well then we're standing outside his house and I'm about to leave and we were talking about the movie again and I said something like "so what was that line you were going to use from the movie?" and he said "I thought you knew." and I said "well I think I do but you tell me.. come on" and he said "nope" so anyway I left and then I texted him after I left and said 'so what was the line?' and he said 'what do you think it was and I'll tell you if you're right.' and I said 'no way in hell cuz if I'm wrong it'll sound totally stupid' then I reconsidered and sent him one saying 'well I'm trusting the fact that I haven't scared you off thus far and the fact that my shut up filter is long since shut off(it was like 2 am at this point).. it was the you love me line" and he texted back and said 'you're right.. lol it's funny cuz it's true' and I went "what's true? you love me?' and he said' well I think from everything I've heard it goes both ways.. but yeah...' and I was lying in bed going "YESYESYES!!!!!!" and I texted back and said "I think you're right ;) I could kinda tell on tuesday'(see previous blog about Tuesday) and he said 'yeah. that and a few others helped lol. But I've thought about saying that for a while now. a few weeks or so.' and I kinda went "actually me too... but yeah it may take a while to get that actual phrase out there in reality" and yeah that's pretty much it.

Now I'm kinda just worried that I'll fuck this up.. like i am prone to doing... whenever things have gotten half this serious in the past I start acting like and ass and push them away... but yeah.. so that's pretty much it.. I'm sure there will be tonz o more posts on this... but that's enough for now

Things are changing again

So I just got a job. I'm now officially a customer service rep for at&t thru teleperformance. ugh. I dunno how I feel about that.. my friend becca loved it there. LOVED IT. But I got a few weeks til I can start (the 17th) then I have 8 weeks of training and with any luck the IRS will have come thru by then so I don't ever have to get on the phones but we'll see what happens.. they sounded really willing to work with my school schedule so that'll keep me pretty close to on the same schedule as Andy which is good.. we'll see

Speaking of Andy... I sure hope he hasn't found out about this/ reads it....I think I freaking love him. Yesterday was by far one of the worst days in a long time (I realize I keep saying that.. but they keep getting worse beyond all odds). I went form so happy and elated that I got a 97% on my English test I had a job interview for today and I was going to take Andy to institute and then we were going to go see sexdrive or something.. it was a great day.. and then I got home. and the shit hit the fan. my dad was home and started in on emailing the IRS and it pissed me off cuz he won't let up about it and it's just annoying and I had had a particularly frustrating day in keyboarding and I was just on edge and yeah so I got all pissed and my dad then started in on how negative I was being and then he left and then my mom called and I exploded on her and then my dad found out and he came home and took my car keys(which he has no legal right to do.. but that's another story) and yelled at me about exploding on other people(again he has no right or room to talk.. he does it too all of us all the time) and called and cancelled my car insurance right then and there and basically told me I was the biggest burden and cause of most of the problems this family has had in the last 5 years and then left. so I went from a good manic(or elated) stage to a depressive stage in less than 3 hours.. that is one hell of a crash I'll tell you.. and I went down. I texted Cami and told her I wasn't going to make it to institute( and I hope she's not pissed at me.. tho she should be prolly) and then I texted Andy and told him kinda what had happened... well mostly that I wasn't going to be able to go out that night and prolly for a while afterword. and then I was just sitting in my room feeling like shit and a complete ass and a burden and sorry for myself mostly and He called and just basically said he was worried about me and was just checking up on me and i was crying and trying to not cry in front of him (cuz I hate crying in front of anyone) and whatev and I guess he could sense that I didn't want to or wasn't able to talk about it right then so he just started rambling about his day trying to get me to laugh or smile or take my mind off it or something and then I was starting to feel a little better and then my dad came home and started yell to try and find me so I totally hung up on him and went right back to feeling like shit.. again. and my dad opened my door to my room and said "I know this whole situation is hard on you and I'm not going to make it harder" and handed me back my keys and walked away. I'm now in a state of shock and disbelief and relief and a few other emotions that don't have names so I just stood there and then I picked up my phone and called Andy and he answered on like the first ring and said "what happened are you OK?" in a really concerned manner and I just kinda went " i dunno.. my dad gave me back my keys" and kinda told him what happened in a very vague overview and then I kinda went silent and then he kinda went oh.. and started in on his day and stuff again (again trying to get my mind off of it) and just kept talking to me for at least a half hour if not more(he hates talking on the phone if I didn't mention that.. HATES IT) and then my dad came and found me again and said "will you come to dinner with us?" and I nodded and he said "is that Andy?" and I nodded again(I'm on the phone and really close to tears.. I wasn't being an ass) and he said "well see if he would like to come with us" and so I invited him and despite the fact he had this root canal today and he was exhausted from work he came down and me and him followed my family and Ellie's friend that came with us down to dinner and Andy sat there and dealt with all the weird stuff Ellie and her friend were doing and my dad's attempt at making conversation (with which I was pleasantly surprised) and then as we were driving to the megaplex (he said you wanna go see a movie or something? I think you could use some time away from everything tonight. and I check with my family then we went) he just looked at me and said "I want you to really listen to the words of this song" then he played the last night by skillet(look it up it's a good song and they are a christian rock band so nothing should offend) and by the end I was almost crying(hell i was crying.. but silently) and he just kinda looked at me and then we went to the movie and I pretty much just clinged(clanged? I dunno how to put that in this tense..) to him the whole time and I was super fidgety and stuff and he just let me and then we got back to my house and we just stood outside talking then he kissed me and said something like "You have to be careful OK? I'm here anytime you need me.. it'll only take me 10 minutes to get there" and kinda smiled and I said "thank you. the same" or something lame like that cuz I was totally crying again and yeah that's how this story ends.. but yeah the end

Stupid damn broncs

So I'm never going to sacrament during the footall season again! the one time I do the broncos get their asses handed to them.. handed! grr!!!!!!!!!!!!!! enternal salvation is a small price to pay for the broncos

I'm so ready for the Broncos game

Haha I'm siing here wasting time til the broncos game starts and avoiding doing homework even tho Andy claims I should be doing it.. I only have a test tomorrow .. I can cram all night.. lol so I'll tell you all about my pregame ritutals so people can laugh at them. cuz they are pretty crazy.

So I went to all three church meetings yesterday because the two times I've skipped...erm...um..missed church they've lost. I'm not all about them losing to a team I really really hate (the patriots) I also wore my Brandon Marshell jersey and my broncos ball cap and of course my broncos lanyard all day, I had my full broncos gear on but then Andy invited me over to his house to watch the game so I took off the crazier of the things but I will now list what I wear in most cases.

1. I have a pair of sunglasses that I accidently popped the lens out of so I popped the other lens out and covered them in blue and orange duct tape and wear those
2. I have a broncos wallet I made out of duct tape with a chain I made out of orange and blue duct tape I usually wear and carry on sundays and mondays
3. I have a orange and blue duct tape belt I made out of duct tape I usually wear
4. A blue headband with the word broncos in orange around the edge(made from duct tape)
5. these arm cover things that cover me from the wrist to about the middle of my forearm one blue and one orange(you guessed it made out of duct tape)
6. these things I slip over my shoes (again made of duct tape) that kinda look like tops of a hi top chuck (one is blue with orange laces and the other is orange with blue laces)
7. and finally a duct tape cape I made for my dog

so yeah broncos ames around my house are a little crazy... well at least I am.. now I guess I'll go study for my test... maybe

insomnia

so I couldn't sleep last night and I ended up getting out of bed at like 230 and staying on the computer until like 8 doing homework and playing games... I think that may have to be my new computer time. no one was bugging me to get off sos they could get on myspace for 4 and a half hours and beg people to be her friend cuz she's chasing a freaking pipe dream but thinks that her future is in acting (sorry it pisses me off a lot both that my parents allow it and that she won't consider anything else.. she's going to end up like me working her way thru college a few years after she graduates cuz she wasn'r smart enough to work for scholarships while she was in high school.. and where I can push myself thru and make myself work full time and go to school and get everything done she cannot.. so she'll never go I'm so anti acting right now it's not even funny. I hate what it's turned her into and what it's done to her between the attitute change and the eating disorders and the slutty clothes and the $500 every coupla months for fucking pictures I'm about three seconds from beating both her and my parents. it was fun now it's time to come back to the real world grr sorry random off topic rant ) and people bugging me to put my clothes away and help pull the boat out of the truck and asking what I'm doing every three seconds and if I need help(you can't help me with typing sorry it's kinda a one person thing so leave me the hell alone) and all the various other annoyances and distractions that happen when everyone is awake. yeah that's it...

Confusion :S(contains mild cursing....sorry)

So I'm really confused so I'm going to blog and hope to get some semblance of understanding.. or at least organization of said confusing thoughts and feelings:

K haha so I'll start with the good: Andy got a gs4 perm job-which is very good. He'll be making more money and stuff so he can move out and what not. The bad(I think) is it's a swing job.. meaning from like 4-1230 at night I think.. so I'm not going to get to see as much of him as I'd like.. but I did manage to see him while he was working graves and I was working days so it can be done. I wonder if this was a little for me too... I've kinda been waiting around hoping to get my old files job back cuz I didn't want to give up my nights to working and days to school. But I made the decision that I am sick of waiting around for something that may or may not happen and I want to get back out there and get a job(I hate Hate HATE!!! not having income.. I have a car payment along with various other bills i.e. school insurance and gas for said car and I'm trying to move out by this time next year so it would be nice to be able to start putting back into that fund instead of taking out) and then this happened so I think that's kinda the go ahead.. i know I can get a swing type job whenev I want.. I'm not all about going back to food but nights aren't that bad and I know how to do it and deal with school at the same time I did it all thru high school and with only 2 or 3 hours of school a day I'd be ok.. but that's a last resort so unless something magical in jobland happens in the next 7 hours or so til I go to bed that's going to be a big part of tomorrow. yeah. it sucks.

ok number two: speaking of Andy! BAH!!!! Why are boys so hard to read?! I have no idea what he is thinking or wants half the time... then again I don't really know what I want most the time either... But yeah I don't even know what to think about the whole Andy situation. I always want to be around him, when my life went to shit a few weeks ago he was the first person I told and some of the only times I could think and breath and not just sit in my room freaking out and unable to function was when I was with him. I always feel so safe when I'm with him, like nothing could ever hurt me, and I hate leaving him at his doorstep (or him leaving me at mine). Last night despite the fact that was freaking cold as hell and way too late for either of us to be up cuz we both had to get up semi early I couldn't help but want to just stay with him( I nearly fell asleep on his shoulder is how this story ended.. he told me I had to go inside and go to sleep or else), I used to be able to go to movies and plays and stuff with Krogman and Zane or by myself and now it just feels weird without him there, I used to not live to hear my phone vibrate hoping i could go over there.. hell even doing homework is more fun and easier to do when I'm with him (well maybe not easier to do but when I do do it I retain more info it's so weird) Knowing him has given me and eternal perspective that 20 years of church couldn't do and that has helped me in so many ways, he's also given me an undying testimony of the priesthood and the knowledge that I both want and need that in my life for the duration there of. I can talk to him about anything and everything under the sun. Last night we went from talking about the movie we had just seen to work to religion to sex to the future to family issues to music to teasing about embarrassing past things to wow to our party days to his mission to my less than wholesome thoughts involving us to south park and back again! I would trust him with my life and then some. I can't even imagine not having him in my life nor can I remember how to have a life without him being a part of it. This scares me. First off because I am too damn young to be feeling like this and making such big decisions such as what I want to do for the rest of my life to pay the bills and if the opportunity arises who I want to be with for the rest of.. forever! I've lived with my family-who I love- for 20 years and I'm about ready to kill all of them on a daily basis! Forever is such a long time! This also scares me for another reason. He has the power to hurt me in a way that no one else does.. or ever has had to my knowledge. that doesn't mean that he will and I am not saying I don't trust him. but that is fact. I have held up pretty ok emotionally thus far despite everything that has gone on but I blame that solely on his allowing me to come hang with him.. like all the time. I dunno it's just big and scary... it almost makes me miss some of my old high school boy problems.. not really but almost.

and finally(well not really but the final big one) school: I'm so not sure if accounting is going to be what I think it will and even if it's what I want.. I mean the classes(aside from keyboarding) have all been relatively easy and unless I get divine intervention I am finishing out this accounting program if nothing else but I don't know if I want to do this for the next 40 years or so... I don't know if I want to do anything for the next 40 or so years hell the way I get bored with things I don't know that there's anything that could interest me for more than 5 or 6 years... I dunno

yeah so that's all... stupid life.. I'm going to go contemplate things whilst watching the Simpsons

Keyboarding

I HATE KEYBOARDING!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok now that that's out...I feel a little better.. but no where in the real world will anyone put a blinder on my keyboard and tell me I have to type jiberish lines like daa daa la; la; jaa aaa lss dss sss dad dad dss at a speed of 40 wpm or faster without using the backspace key....ever!!! I'll always be able to look at the damn keys and type things that are important and make sense.. grr that's pretty much it.. I'm jusy not all about 5 hours of keyboadring a day.. on the plus side I finished computer lit in just 42 hours for a 90 hour class... and I didn't have to take a final

a story of epic stupidity

So last night I went home after institute and I was really thirsty so I got into the fridge and found some apple juice...which is weird cuz I'm usually the only one who buys that.. and I haven't bought in for about 3 weeks.. but I think whatev and I drink almost a pint of it in one go and then take the whole thing back to the computer so I could continue drinking it. Then I went to bed and crashed which usually means one of three things : 1) I'm really tired/ on the tail end of a manic stage. 2) I'm getting sick. or 3) I'm drunk. Apparently this was the latter of the three cuz I woke up this morning with a massive hangover! WTF?! If I had done it intentionally or something I would feel like I deserved this.. but no I just drank some juice and I'm now paying for it! teach me to try and be healthy! that does it! nothing but Mountain Dew for me anymore!

New perspective

So I went to institute today after literally 3 weeks of little to no religion cuz I keep being naughty and skipping church to hang with Andy, or watch the broncs game(which I won't be doing anymore.. they seem to lose when I do that) and I keep hanging with Andy in lieu of institute.. but I went today. Wow! I think I'm going to Skip church and institute for a few weeks anytime it starts to become a chore.. I cannot believe how much I've been missing! and it's just amazing how the same story can teach you different things at different parts of your life. Like today we talked about prolly my favorite scripture story in the new testament the woman taken in adultery in the 8th chapter of st. john (verses 1- 11 for those of you following along at home) I've always really loved that story ever since it was first quoted to me when I was about 15. At that time I was just starting my first real venture into "true darkness" where I knew what I was doing was wrong and I was doing it just to be rebellious and "bad" and one of my good friends one day quoted that story to me word for word as we were walking after I had said something like "it's no use. I don't want to change and it would be too hard anyway... I've gone too far" and she quoted that story to me and we had a nice talk. At that time I needed it to be "there is no sin too awful that you can't come back. Christ is loving and merciful. not all fire and brimstone" kinda story but tonight as we talked about it I got a different meaning. well several. But the one I got tonight was more of a "it may seem like the end of the world right now but it's actually a new beginning" thing. It was really quite eye opening. the other story we talked about was the one where Christ heals the blind man on the sabbath (again for all you following along at home this is in the 9th chapter of St. John.... I dunno what verses off the top of my head tho...sorry) by making mud and having him go wash. Yeah. the thing that stood out to me in this story is that this mans whole life had been one giant trial; he was blind from birth and it says he is of age so he's at least 13 but in my mind I see him as around my age so about 20 and Christ's followers ask him "why is this guy blind?" basically and Christ says basically "so I could heal him" His whole life had been one big trial just for one moment in time (well it does live on forever in the scriptures but work with me here) one miracle took 20 years of humbling and faith and trials. For any of you that know what's going on in my life right now this makes sense anyone who doesn't prolly shouldn't be reading this lol but I'll make it relatively short. My world has turned to shit overnight. I lost my job, I'm getting beat out for getting it back by liars who cheated on the assessment and got a lying excellent score and I did it honestly and got a relatively low score so I'm at the bottom of the list to get called back if they don't get a full staff by the time they work their way down to the 91's, so I started going to school with the idea that that unemployment that I have been paying into for 4 years would be of some use and that the state would say "oh. look. She's going to school to be of some use to society. let's us help her out" but alas it's the government.. they thing it's impossible to accept work and go to school so they are denying me unemployment... so I now need a job...like now. so basically short of losing the single greatest guy I have ever met ever! or someone dying very little can go wrong in my life. So this lesson really made me step back and go "wow. am I missing a teaching moment here? is this to prove to everyone and myself that I really do believe what I claim to believe? Should I be telling my family that the reason I am not freaking out too awful much (I am human... sometimes it does get to me) is that I have been told that it'll work out the way it's aposta even if I don't like it? I dunno.... :S Just some random deep thoughts

More about school

So I realize I've already posted about school...I don't really care all that much I'm posting more cuz it's uber cool. I finished 80 credit hours of Computer Lit in 36 real hours! that's a whole class in a little over a week (cuz I have a little bit of business english every day so like 4.5 hours of computer lit and 1.5hours of business english a day) yeah it's pretty much awesome!! I've got some finishing up/cleaning stuff to do tomorrow then I take my final prolly thursday then I am done Done DONE!!!!!! Haha it's freaking awesome... if the stupid state would just give me the unemployment I deserve I could be done Done DONE with school in like 3-5 months at this rate...but alas they will not... but yeah it's awesome

The best and worst Saturday... like Ever ;)

So I posted this blog on my myspace but forgot to set it to private so Andy got ahold of it... so I figured for the rest of the world that doesn't have myspace I'd repost it here... it's just epic enough to merit two blogs ;) lol But I'll prolly edit it and make it easier to understand... so here goes:

Hahaha so I totally don't even know if I'll leave this one public or not but I totally got to get it out....HE FINALLY KISSED ME LAST NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*does happy dance* ok haha I feel better.. as horribly cheesy as it was it was perfect....kinda..... lol we need practice... but I'm sure that won't be much of a problem to convince him of ;)
K so here's what happened:
Me Andy and his Cousin Mabe(aka Cody) went to Quarantine last night and for any of you that don't know i don't handle scary movies. at all. It's slightly better when I'm with him but I still was nearly on his lap at the end (and I'm sure his shoulder was numb from my death grip on it.) Then we went to burger king and we were talking and me and Mabe are freaking out at like every little sound coming from the kitchen and all the cops going by and Andy is laughing at the fact that I'm still shaking from the movie. So we finally leave there around like 1030 and Andy and Mabe drive me back to my car (we met at the mall) and Mabe steps outside "for a smoke" and me and Andy sit in the car talking for like 20 minutes until Mabe gets too cold and knocks on the window so we let him back in cuz it's snowing and really cold and this kid has no body fat whatsoever ;) anywho so the three of us start talking for a minute then I say "ok, I'd really better get going" so me and Andy get out of the car and go over by my car and start talking about Mabe and my horrible day and just stuff in general then we hug and I said something like "I think I need to lose my bet to David tonight(I bet one of my Friends that Andy would take all the hints I've been giving him before I got sick of it and kissed him) " and Andy goes "why? why is this such a necessity?" and I said "I'll tell you when you're older"(He hates when I use that cuz he's 24 and I'm 19) and he goes "ugh" and then we're both staring at each other and I go "this isn't happening one of us needs to grow some guts" and he goes "I can see it in your eyes... you want to " and I said " I know... but I can't read yours" and he said "That's a good thing" then he totally initiated it! I was so proud of him!!! And then we pull away and talk a little bit more then we leave and me and him are texting for a little while and I said "well that helps with the scared" and he said "yeah I would think so" and I said "told you my wow shirt was lucky" and he said " I didn't even notice you had it on" and I said "that's cuz I was very cold so I kept my jacket zipped all night" and he said "I did notice that.. but funny you didn't look cold ;)" AHHH!!!!!!!!! AWESOME!!!!!! it confirmed a lot of things I've been wondering about and shit.... and now I'm just rambling and need to get to church... haha so peace out

so yeah.. that's basically what happened... lol that blog was written the day after It happened and yeah.. I decided except for the typos to leave it alone cuz... I'm pretty lazy haha short answer.

AIDA!!! GO SEE THIS SHOW!!! WHY ARE YOU SITTING THERE READING THIS?! GO SEE IT!!!!!

Last night I had the chance to go see Aida at the Terrace Plaza Playhouse... Oh. My. Gosh!!!! AMAZING!!! Easily one of the best plays I have ever seen and the production was amazing! they pulled out all the stops on this one! The girl playing Aida-Sami- I found out is only just barely 18! I woulda never in a million years guessed that! she plays the part so well and so convincingly I was crying more than once. All the leads were amazing! I've never really seen Ashley Schmit in anything other than the comedy relief role-which she is in this show too but she also gets some powerful emotions too. She is perfect as Amneris! The guy they had playing Radames-Parker- was both very attractive and excelent! it was so amazing! Go see it!

school.. ugh

As much as I proclaim to hate school this blog may end up being a board to keep everyone updated on how awesome or craptabulious I'm doing (yes craptabulious..it's a big smarticle college word that I've learned... so is smarticle) so the first of many blogs on this subject.
I'm nearly done with my computer lit class. It only took me like 2 weeks, which is awesome considering I'm a techtard (there's another college word..techtarded) and I did most all of it without my nerd of a boyfriends help... most all of it...he did pretty much define every word having to do with computers ever! (thanks babe ;) I dunno if you'll read this or admit to reading it but somehow I think if you find out about it you'll follow it pretty religiously... or Lucy will for you) But I did all the projects myself with no outside help! This is a big accomplishment for me. I also just got my 2nd business English test back-94% woot! On the first one I got and 84%! Double woot! If I can keep this up and my average at the end is 80% or above on all my "A" test scores (they do three tests an "a" "b" and "c" if you pass the "a" with above 80% you don't have to take "b" or "c" if you don't pass "a" you have to take "b" and pass with 80% or you have to take "c". Make sense?) I don't have to take the comprehensive final-which I would like to avoid at all costs! so I'm on track for that right now WOOT!

The first of many random ramblings

Haha so today sitting in class bored as can be and whilst reading Annies blog I decided I should give this here blogging a try.. I do it on myspace but a lot of those are just angry strings of curse words juxtaposed together so I decided I'd try for a nicer one out here where ya'll can read it if you so choose.. lol I'll try not to curse too much but I make no promises.. although I will preface anything too curse filled with a pg13 in the title... if I remember. so yeah.. that's pretty much the preface to anything you read on here...if anyone other than me reads it... yeah.. that's all...