first day of live calls(and possibly last)

so in case anyone wonders or cares today was my first day of live calls. Let me tell you. God has a sense of humor. I wanted a chance to prove myself and he delivered by handing me all the angriest horribliest hardest calls he could find.

First off I was the first one on the headsets out of my class no one else could log in. So I was the first one to take calls. and of course first call I get is a troubleshooting call with an angry customer. Oh joy. Everyone watched as I flubbed and floundered and got hung up on after 25 minutes. Great first call. not! The next 2 calls were also troubleshooting with semi angry calls as well. actually to save time I'm just going to list all the calls I got:

• 6 troubleshooting
• 2 cancellations
• one lady that I argued with for 20 minutes about protocol, it ended when she called me a few derogatory names for "Mexican" and my manager-who was basically camped out next to me all day cuz I was having such a hard time- got on the line and told the customer that she could not treat me like that
• 3 other people who were... irate... about my inability to give them classified info.
• and 3 nice people who were very patient and understood that I was doing the best I could

and I also managed to hang up on one customer while trying to transfer her to tech support-but luckily she was one of the really nice ones. Actually all I did all day was transfer people. I felt like a switchboard operator. I can't do a damn thing in the billing system or anything but I can sure as hell transfer calls! I am the call transferring Guru. All I can say is that 8 hours is so worth an IRS job and I'd better get one. But again karma is out to get me and God has a sense of humor. I'll prolly get an IRS job as an inbound call rep. At which point I just pull out a shotgun and kill myself. if anyone hears of another, not phone related, job opening you should let me know. yeah that's pretty much it. I'm just venting. The one good thing is that there is no way tomorrow can be any worse than today was. and yet I say that and Karma will go ahhaha just to prove that's not true here's an even worse day. BOO!!!!!!!!!!

insomiatic.. is that a real word?

I can't sleep. again. So my solution again? blogging. lol I never thought I would like blogging as much as I do. Thanks Annie!

So I hit the floor Monday. This means that I will be out job hunting again on Tuesday. lol but no all things considered I'm still really nervous. I can't remember how to even do the simplest of things. So here's hoping I get an IRS job between now and then(it won't happen) or that I make it thru monday without freaking out or dying or getting fired

I get to go down to SLC with my favorite guy tomorrow... I think. I'm much excited. I also get to try and get my mom out of the house so I can put together my parents Christmas gift. I'll blog about what it is after Christmas to preserve the secret ;)

Speaking of Christmas, it'll be interesting this year. I am apparently going over to Andy's and spending a good chunk of the day with his family. They have like totally adopted me. Which makes things easier, except that you know I haven't told my family yet that I will be gone a chunk of the day. It's not like we do anything, get up open presents, then watch 8 hours of a Christmas story or go visit relatives that I don't even think are related to me they are so distantly related. But still... I dunno. It'll be an interesting day.

Yeah. I'm kinda hopped up on dew and pixy stix so this blog is random and short. But I'm going to go roll around in the snow and then hopefully get to sleep. yeah the end

I done stole this from Tara...again

Haha I'm a sucker for tags/surveys etc., what can I say. This one seems to be a movie tag with you listing your favorite movie what starts with that letter. And much like Tara I also am a Cenophile-tho I dunno if Tara has ever or would ever use that term- so many of mine have 4,5 or 10 answers! lol I dunno about ten but... OK here goes:

• A-American History X-great movie I think everyone should prolly see this one once even tho it's kinda hard to sit thru-Apacolypto, A scanner Darkly, American Pie one thru three, Austin Powers one thru three,Alpha Dog


• B- Billy Madison (best Adam Sandler Movie Ever!)-I'll steal that one Batman Begins,Blades of Glory, Bill and Ted's Bogus Journey, Butterfly Effect
  
• C- Crash, Cars, Charlie Bartlett


• D-Dark knight, Disturbia, Deuces Wild, Dangerous Lives of Alter boys,


• E-Eagle Eye, Eight Mile


• F-Fight Club, 1408,


• G- The Guardian, Get smart, Golden Compass Goonies


• H-Hairspray, Hamlet 2, Harold and Kumar one and two, Half baked,


• I- I Am Legend, the Italian Job, Idiocracy, Imaginationland


• J-Juno, Jarhead,John Q


• K- Kung Fu Panda


• L-Live free or Die Trying, Lord of War, Lords of Dogtown


• M-, Mean Girls, Mama Mia, Matrix one and three, Meet the Spartans, Mad money, Mr. Brooks, Monty Python and the Holy Grail


• N-Newsies, Nightmare before Christmas, Never Back Down


• O- Orange County, Office Space


• P- Pineapple Express, The Producers, Pan's Labryinth(the secret of where I got my blog name is out) The Prestige
  
• Q- Quantum of Solace


• R-Rent,Role Models,Requiem for a Dream,Road trip, Robin Hood: Men in Tights!


• S-Sweeney Todd: the Demon Barber of Fleet Street, Superbad, Stoploss, Step up one and two, Scary movies one two and three, Step Brothers, South park: bigger longer uncut,Starship troopers, SLC Punk, Saints and Soldiers, Singles ward,Shooter


• T- Tommy Boy, Ten things I hate about you, Twenty-one, Team America:world police, Traffic,310 to Yuma


• U-United States of Leland, United 93


• V-Vantage Point,View From The Top,V for Vendetta, Vertical Limit


• W- What Happens In Vegas, Wanted,


• X- X-men one thru three


• Y-Young Frankenstein,


• Z-Zoolander, Zack And Miri

That was pretty hard. Once you found one it made you think of another and another and another.. lol ok well there ya go. anyone who wants it can steal it

This counts as typing practice, right?

I HATE KEYBOARDING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

K got that out of my system. I Cannot pass keyboarding if my life depended on it. I pretty much hate it. its a stupid pointless class cuz in the real world there is this key called backspace that you can use as much as you would like. I've used it like 30 times in the last sentence alone. But I got out what I wanted to say and I didn't look. BAHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! and why the hell do I need keyboarding anyway? accounting. numbers not typing. bah!

on a completely unrelated note I learned a valuable lesson last night that I will now impart to you:

One should never eat 50 something(the number varies from text to text last night.. so I'm not entirely sure how many I had. Somewhere between 54-58) pixy stix and 40 ozs of dew at 10 at night-or prolly at any one time-regardless of how tired one may be. Especially if one expects to go home and go to sleep. It doesn't happen. One will end up jumping on one's bed until almost 3 am and sending horribly random texts to ones favorite nerd. (sorry babe) Just saying... it's not a good idea prolly.

and another completely unrelated note. I need to figure out my new years resolutions here is what I'm thinking of doing.:

• Cut back to one dew a day. this one will prolly win and then I'll break it halfway thru the year cuz that's how I roll.
• Move out. This one will happen by November it's not really a resolution, more like a new years promise.
• Get an IRS job. this one had better be a new years promise or I start stabbing eyes. I was good at my job and I jumped thru every hoop they've asked. I now have 6 perfect score sitting in the bank. I had better get an email right quick about my job or the eyes will have it(it being a fork stabbed into them) haha pun.
• scripture study. I've gotten really bad about that.. ideally I'd like to have it every day, but three times a week would be better than I'm getting right now.

so there is part of my starting list. I'll weed it out to like 4 or 5 in the next 2 weeks but if you have any suggestions feel free to let me know.

stream of consciencness

For anyone what hasn't taken Mrs. Isaccs ap lit course-prolly everyone reading this. all three of you- stream of consciencness means that the writer tries to capture how thoughts happen on paper. Most of my posts are similar to this concept. And this one will be no different. But I don't really have a good title for it and it sounds deep.

I pretty much hate waking up to find that it is negative degrees and has been snowing all night. I pretty much hate snow unless it is a warm day and I am skiing on it. Pretty much. People forget how to drive in snow. I kid you not one truck was barreling down the road at 65 mph right down the middle when I went to work yesterday. um if it's snowing speed limits are still enforced-the speed around my house is 30-40 mph depending where you are at- and two cars still need to fit on the road. everyone doesn't move for you. Or you get those other people that only go 15 mph. EVERYWHERE! um. We're on the freeway and I'm in first gear? I don't think so. I'm all about slowing down and being a little more aware and stuff but that is a little ridiculous.
Also it means I'm confined to this house and my dad is also confined to his house.(For the record they are the same house. but I don't really feel a claim here anymore other than it's the place I live until I get an IRS job, married, or Nov.) Which usually ends in me getting an ass load of chores, or him asking me stupid things like "can you help me shop for your mom?" Um. No. I don't know her sizes and I have the fashion sense of a bear. (And that may insult the bear.) hello. I wear a black tee shirt, converse, and jeans every single day of my life. Also I'm still not all about going anywhere with you. Why don't you ask Ellie the "fashionista"? I'm sure she would be a much better fit than me. What a stupid question.
I'm hoping it stops snowing and it all goes away before Saturday. I am so Excited to go down to temple square with Andy. And I am not getting the lecture about driving in snow yet again-I've gotten it twice this year already. And the infamous 'call us when you get there' Forget that. 20. Grew up in Utah. And the last time I called to tell you I was where I said I was going to be because I was trying to be nice this is how the phone was answered "Whats wrong? you crashed right? oh god where are you?" yeah. You think I'm joking. So I'm not dealing with that anymore. Again. 20. Driving for 4 years by myself and about 8 on top of that not by myself. I know what I'm doing. And short of a giant blizzard or whatev I'm going down to the SLC with Andy.

And there you have it. My thoughts for the past 15 minutes. I am pretty bored.

List of shows I wish to see before I die

This one is mostly just for my own personal gain. but if anyone hears anything on them and wants to let me know that'd be cool too:

1. Spring Awakening. The more I find on this the more I want to see it. But this is one that will never make it into Utah I'm sure But I'm hoping it'll make it's way into Las Vegas and I can get out there to see it
2. Avenue Q. again. never coming to Utah. and already left Vegas. but one day...
3. Wicked. Yeah. This one will be in Utah. But no more tickets. awe damn. again someday...or like i was telling Tara, I'll just jump someone as they head in and take their tickets.. not really but...
4. Spamalot. Again I missed it when it came last year.
5. Young Frankenstein. Best Mel Brooks movie. Ever. As a musical? almost orgasmic.(Sorry for my liberal language. I'm listening to spring awakening and that's the best way to describe it) But it closes in Jan of 2009. Dunno if I'll ever get to see it
6. Naked boys:singing. Morbid Curiosity. with a name like that... come one
7. Eqqus. Anytime something is full of controversy I want to see it. I had no intention of ever seeing the golden compass but when there was so much stuff about it I had to go see it-good movie btw not worth the controversy- same with prop 8. I really didn't have a stand on it til everyone else did.(also see the first two shows I want to see.. yeah) But aside from that it sounds like an intriguing show. Psychological straight play about a 17 year old that stabs houses in the eye with and ice pick?
8. My first time. Again. Just kinda a morbid curiosity. Straight play about peoples first sexual experiences?
9. Prayer for my enemy. Sounds like something I would want to see. Kinda sounds like stoploss which is one of my favorite movies unfortunately it ends on DEC 21,2008. so i dunno if it'll come off or I'll just have to live with never seeing it

I'll list more when i think of them. But that is kinda a comprehensive list... someday

I don't really have a good title for this...

Yesterday was.. I dunno..

I'd gotten in about 6 am Saturday morning cuz I stayed out with some people from teleperformance to watch them get smashed. so I came in and went to sleep for a minute. Then about 830 or 9 my mom came in and asked if I wanted to to go to breakfast with her and my dad. I don't know why she asks my answer is always the same. always. no. because
A) it's too damn early
B) I'm almost always fighting with my dad or on a neutral ground but I still would rather stay away to minimize the chances of starting said fight back up and
C) The two of them act like 17 year olds.. all the time. It drives me up the wall. If I so much as hold Andy's hand I get lectured but they get to make out all the time. no. it pisses me off cuz I don't wanna see that and it always happens.
So I waited for them to leave then got up, showered, did all my computer stuff I was going to do and then went back to sleep. Then my alarm went off at 2 pm so I could get up and go to Andy's family party with him. As I was leaving my dad spoke the first words he'd said to me in 3 days which was "it'll freeze tonight, drive safely" which isn't much but it's more than I have been getting and it means he respects my decision to stop putting forth effort. well at least acknowledges it.

So I went to Andy's family thing. Which was really fun. It was his mom's side of the family and there were like cute little kids running all over and i got to meet all kinds of his relatives.. some were awesome. some were... interesting.. but it was fun. Then we decided that that was enough family time for a while so we decided to go see the day the earth stood still. Which was also interesting. But I really liked it. I would recommend it to anyone looking for a movie to go see. It's got some cool special effects and although I don't much care for Jennifer connely-I did love her in requiem for a dream, but I just love that movie-I love Keanu Reeves and Will Smiths little boy-Jaden- is such a good actor. And so cute!

After the movie got over-it was almost midnight-we had to go up to walmart and get some milk and stuff for Andy's family then we went back to his house and sat in the car talking until like 2 am when we decided to go to the bk lounge and get chicken wraps and cheesy tots. (and because even tho he won't admit it he wanted to listen to the rest of my Broadway/disco music ;) ).. well he wanted food. I just didn't want to go home. Then we went back to his house and stood talking until like almost 4. Then I came home.

WARNING: this next part contains a paragraph so cheesy a Kraft box couldn't handle it and so much sap that it puts a maple tree to shame ;) you have been warned

It was so weird. I've never been able to really talk to anyone like him. And I love being held by him. I'm not usually all about being all touchy feely. but I feel so safe with him. like nothing could ever hurt me. I can be feeling so horrible and not care about anything and 2 hours with him makes life worth living again(IE last Thursday) He can make me feel like things I constantly beat myself up for don't matter anymore, and he never allows me to make jokes at my own expense. I dunno what I did to deserve him but I should do more of it.

anywho yeah. that's pretty much it

Dedicated to my dad

I found this. Right now and forever more if you are going to act like a 7 year old then this song is for you:
(It's called postcards from hell by zebrahead. I couldn't get a youtube video to embed on here . but I think the song is on the player on here. if you can work that you stupid fuck. pay special attention to the second verses and the chorus I'll even make the lyrics stand out)

I didn't see the signs posted on the road
Dead end gives way to the cliff that soars
And I lose control your face still looks bored
One, two, fuck you! I won't change for you

Wrong way This time it's going down
You say I'm immature to hang around
Okay Face-plant to the ground
I won't change for you I won't change for you

Tonight I wash my hands of you
You set the bar I could not live up to
Tonight the light in breaking through
So thank you very little and send me postcards from hell

This relationship is over as we scrape the ledge
and you call me a loser falling over the edge Like you're cutting all your losses
Like a bet you can hedge
One two, fuck you! I won't change for you

A black eye and my heart is ripped out of my chest
Crucified
For not passing any of your stupid tests
Good-bye
Right now I could care less
I won't change for you I won't change for you

Tonight I wash my hands of you
You set the bar I could not live up to
Tonight the light in breaking through
So thank you very little and send me postcards from hell

We've come a long way Don't look down!
Your heart is rotten Your heart is rotten
Too bad it was the wrong way
Won't be long now Till we hit the rock Bottom

Tonight I wash my hands of you
You set the bar I could not live up to
Tonight the light in breaking through
So thank you very little and send me postcards from hell

Tonight I wash my hands of you
You set the bar I could not live up to
Tonight the light in breaking through
So thank you very little and send me postcards from hell

so there you have it. I'm fucking done. when you can mature up and admit that you are wrong then we can talk. but until then this song stands. Although You'll prolly hate me forever when I get married in the temple and you can't come cuz you refuse to admit that maybe you aren't always right and because I refuse to turn out like you and have something I believe so strongly in that I would risk losing my family over it. so you know what. GROW THE FUCK UP. I meant what I said. I'm done changing for you and I'm done putting forth the effort. don't touch my shit or talk to me. cuz I'm fucking done.

just eff my dad at this point(and other random ramblings)

So. my last post was amazingly.. depressing. But I had some more realizations last night:

1. My dad is amazingly childish.


2. I have the same weaknesses he does. But unlike him I am willing to admit that I am wrong and don't know anything and trust God even if i don't like what I am being told.


3. I'm done putting forth all the effort to try and keep things pleasant, or at least livable.


4. and I was going to lose him when I got married anyway. We're just starting a little early.

It's amazing. I went from feeling like the most worthless piece of sh*t on the planet and in 20 minutes with Andy all that went away. Gone. I was level headed-well as levelheaded as I get-and wondered why I cared in the first place. I have Andy and I am happy. Nothing else should matter. Amazing. I then went to work(which is a joke anymore. I'm not learning jack squat at this point I'd rather be out on the floor. yes I still wouldn't know how to do what I'm aposta be learning but at east if I got a live call about it I would have to learn-baptism by fire and all you know- but I'm still hoping for an IRS job right quick like January. before the job bid at teleperformence. but that's a whole different story) and learned about the history of the spork. I kid you not. I was that bored(btw 50,400 seconds until the weekend. yes. again.I was that bored) and then it was time to come home. I listened to Christmas music and choir music and night driving by thrice so I would be calm when I got home so I could try and at least not make things worse. I got in my dad just glared at me from the time i walked in and I went "hi" as pleasantly as I could(I'm good at faking pleasant. remember? Wendy's 3 years. telemarketer now. yeah. I can be sweet as pie.. or so you would think) And he takes that an shits on it. "I won't ask you about your life anymore so you won't rip my head off. I'm sorry I care too much." (My first thought was a giant. I'm sorry you care too much about yourself and you resent me.... but I was trying to not sever this completely) so I said you know what? I tried and you rejected. Sit her and be a bitter selfish old man. I'm done putting forth effort. I'm not hurt or mad anymore but I sure as hell am done." and I walked away. He hasn't spoken or even looked at me since but that's fine. I was going to lose him anyway.

Next point. I'm finally OK with getting married at 20. lol it didn't take much to convince me, just a few divine kicks upside the head. ;) The problem now comes when it becomes official and we have to tell our-my-family.(I guess I should still speak hypothetically.. if it becomes official) Andy comes from an extra religious family. as in he is like directly related to some of the first members of the church(I think its the smiths but I'm not sure.) there was really never any doubt he was going to go on mission and he's never been accused of being "too good for this family" I'm sure. His brother was married in the temple. Even tho his two sisters couldn't come. It won't be a big huge deal. they would all go good basically.

My family is different. There are 4 relatives on my side that could actually be inside the temple. 4. And at least two of them aren't close enough to me to make the trip up here from Nephi or wherever. yeah. so my two grandmas.. maybe. My mom and I have already had a big blow out about this a few months ago. It went something like this:

Mom: So what's the deal with you and Andy?

Me: I dunno. We're dating.

Mom: So is it like serious?

Me: I dunno

Mom: well if things do become serious I'd like you to think about getting married outside the temple first so your father and I can be there.

Me: That won't happen. If you guys want to be there when/if I get married you know what you need to do. you've got plenty of time

Mom: You just hate your family and don't want them there. You Know your father would never change and never let me do what it would take.

Me: Well that's you Guy's choice. I don't hate you. I would like nothing more than for you guys to be there. But I won't compromise. I will never end up in a house like this again. Full of distrust and resentment and anger. and if/when I find someone I would care enough about to give myself to I won't risk losing him. I will be with him for all eternity. What if in that year before we could go again One of us died? or something. or we were never eligible again? cuz that happens more often than one would think. Then the whole til death do you part would stand. I won't have that happen.

Mom: you know your father would be crushed...

Me: again, his choice. But I've made mine and I won't waiver so get used to the idea*turns to leave*

Mom:*screaming* you just want any excuse to cut your family out of your life! That boy has brainwashed you with a bunch of pretty pictures! You'll regret not having your family there for the rest of your life!

Me:*now severely ticked and also screaming* He is not brainwashing me! I made this choice long ago! You are the one who got brainwashed! I'm sorry I have standards and won't settle. You made your choices long ago too! I'll regret not having my family there sure. but I'd regret not doing what I know is right even more. And my kids will have the example to look up to. one or both parents will be rms and married in the temple. the first time. you can be to the reception after and all the other stuff but I won't change. And if I ever hear you talk about Andy that way again regardless of if you are my mother or not I will knock you on your ass. You do not get to talk about him like that. He is the best thing that ever happened to me. EVER! He accepts me for who I am and he has saved me from myself so many times before. So I suggest you either find a way to change or accept that you can't be there. Cuz this discussion is over!

I then got in my car and drove away. This was months ago. like August. when we had first started dating. So I've always kinda known the impact this choice would have. Now I'm actually purely terrified to start this up again. It would break my mom's heart to not be able to actually be there. But She'd accept my decision even if she didn't agree. My dad on the other hand would think it was just my way of Keeping him out of my life and would disown me. Not only that but he would force my mom and sister-as long as they lived there- to ostracise me as well. Ellie would support me. I'm sure. We've talked about it. And maybe if I went thru all the hard huge fights-that I can handle. or I would. whether I could or not-it would make things easier on her when and if her time comes and she makes that choice. I don't want to lose my family or have to choose between them and my God. But if forced I will. And My God will win. Every time. Then hopefully things would work out from there. But yeah. again. These are initial concerns. I've decided I will deal with any and all of them when the time comes from here on out-HA as I laugh at myself right...-or so I say.

Yeah. So this is my amazing life. Aren't you jealous?

eff my family, and my life.

I realized a few things last night:

1. My dad is a stubborn selfish asswipe that refuses to change
2. I am just like him
3. I have to get out of this house. and soon. or One of us will end up dead or in jail
4. Andy is absolutely the best thing that has ever happened in my life. I don't know what I did to deserve him but it was obviously something amazing. and
5. because of this I can't let him in my life more than he is.

I love him too much to put him thru this hell hole that I call life. I can't. I would rather die alone and miserable than ever condemn another person to this. I can't stand the thought of being so insecure that I have to rule him with fear and guilt the way my dad has been doing to my mom of late. And I can't stand the thought of resenting my future children the was my dad does me. If I hadn't come along he wouldn't've ever had to marry my mom. they coulda just continued living in sin. Or the thought of my kids being chased out of their own house, Knowing that the damn dog has more claim to this house than they do. I can't stand it. And the person that would do that to them is me. That gene or trait or blood or idea has been natured or nurtured into me so strongly that I don't know that I could ever change it. The only way to be sure and not do this to the ones I love is to never let them get close enough for me to do it. Once I am out of this contentious shithole of a house I can never come back. and I will never allow my house to get like this. ever. I don't know what to do. I love andy more than I ever thougth possible and I think I got divine permission last night but I know that in order to be worthy to enter the temple and have myself ready to receive.. whatever it is I'm aposta learn when I go in there I would have to forgive my dad. Truly forgive him. And I can't do that. I'll be eternally damned but I cannot do it. And I could never allow anyone I love so strongly to settle for the broken distrustful person that I am. Not in good conscience. And even as I type this I know that I would rather be with andy and the knowledge that he had settled and that I was a selfish human than ever lose him. My life revolves around him and I have a life because of him. he's stopped me from doing stupid things so many times he doesn't even know. From giving up and ending up back in the word of wisdom prison that I struggled so hard to escape to talking enough sense into me that I realize that assault with a deadly weapon is not the answer. Even tho it would force my father to listen to me it would forever sever any chance of repairing this and it would land me my second or third strike. at 20 I could be facing life with no parole. it's not worth it. I dunno.

Not really lovin possesive pronouns

So I just got my English test back.. I got an 84% on possessive pronouns. Not so thrilled. It's enough it doesn't hurt my need to not take that final but I think I coulda done better if I hadn't put it off for a month cuz I didn't like the new teacher guy. He's mellowed out tho.. and so have I.. so it's.. tolerable... yeah anyway that's my update.. next stop pronouns and antecedents

I'm not sure what just happened but I think I got one of my wishes.. or will be soon..I think

Last night was My Rigby/Sparkes/like 5 other surnames side of the family Christmas party(aka my moms). I've never really been all about this party cuz.. well take me at my loudest and most obnoxious and times it by about 200. You now have the Rigby side of the family. We are big fat loud redneck mofos! Actually it's really close to the party in my big fat Greek wedding..you know.. just loud and boisterous and welcoming and HUGE! It can be fun at times. But add that to the fact that I don't really know about 185 of the people on that side and my cousins are like 43 and 38. yes. my first cousins. their kids are closer to my age than they are. it's not so much fun. There was always me and Ren(my 3rd cousin) that were the same age.. and everyone else was either like 4 years younger or 10 years older. Crazy.

Anyway. so I decided-after much guilt from my mom and much begging and pleading from various aunts and grandmas and stuff-that Andy needed to meet this side of the family. For a few reasons:

1. It would be a good test. If he can handle this side of my family without running away in fear he's a keeper
2. He needs to know the gene pool he's getting into-perhaps
3. Someone for me to talk to and
4. This is the side of the family that at my Grandma's 90th birthday party(when Andy didn't come) kept asking things like "where's this Andy we've heard so much about" and "When is your wedding? let me see your ring" and "where are your two kids and husband?"-I dunno where that one came from-I was in a constant changing state of relationship. from pregnant unwed mother that the "babydaddy" ran off to married with two kids and everything in between. I felt the need to generate a few rumors *mischievous grin*. Hey they are my blood. They are stuck with me Forever! So I feel that it's OK to be an ass once in a while

so I took him. We had to show up a little early to help set up cuz it was the sparkes turn to set up-we rotate who is in charge by "family" so my grandma's three kids-my mom my aunt and my uncle-and their immediate families-ie kids and kids kids and spouses-and that was defiantly the worst part. There were only like 12 people there so it was interrogation city for him. But then as more people showed up we were able to slip under the radar and not get interrogated too badly. Haha and my 90 year old grandma ran right up to Andy and gave him this Huge hug when we both got there and was all "there's my Andy!" and he just kinda laughed like.. ok? haha My grandma is one of those people you can't help but love. So we ate then it was time for the gift exchange. Which meant He had to go sit with the guys. and I had to sit with he girls.. on the other side of the room. so that was interesting. but we got thru that then we left right quick. And were were driving around and talking about all the weddings we have coming up-I have like at least 3 friends, and one family friend and he has his sister and his cousins- and he stops halfway thru his sentence and goes "G*****n my brain" and I go.."Um......K...what?" and he goes"nevermind. it just has to do with a topic that has been brought up quite a few times tonight" and I kinda internally went "ah!!!!" cuz the last time those two sentences were put together was when the whole love thing came up... but anyway we decided to go see bolt-which is ADORABLE! btw- and then we got to his house so I could drop him off and we were sitting there talking cuz I was pissed cuz my dad had left me like 3 voicemails all of them starting with "don't ignore me.. why do you think I pay for you to have a phone?"-when it goes straight to voicemail without ringing. the phone is off.. I'm not ignoring you-gr.. anywho and we were talking about Jeff Dunham and he goes you have got to see the Christmas special. I've got it on my ipod.. you wanna watch? and I said yeah I do. so we sat in my car watching Jeff Dunham(.com lol anyone who watches him gets that) for an hour then it was like 1:15 in the morning so I started trying to leave kinda so we got out and started talking and making horrible lame jokes and stuff.. cuz it was really late for both of us-neither of us got much sleep the night before- and so we were standing there and I was talking about how that side of the fam only gets together once a year so he's safe for another year and how I'm not all about extended family usually and he goes "well my brother says when you get married your extended family consists of your brothers and sisters" all cryptic like. And whatev. So yeah we finally decided at about like 2:15 it was time to go in cuz he was about to lose extremities cuz the boy doesn't wear a coat. I really won't think less of you for not wanting frost bite. Hell I admit I'm cold all the time.. I steal his coat in his car all the time. ;) but so yeah I left adn then cuz I'm much braver over text than I ever would be in person I sent him this:

Btw is this your way of telling me I should be paying tithing and all that other stuff that would allow me to enter the temple again?

And his response was:

Lol I guess if you want to say that. But I need to do that too lol.

WHAT THE CRAP DOES THAT MEAN?! AHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I dunno what to even think.. and he knows I'll stew on it that why he's hinting about it. And the worst part is I totally texted Darcy. like immediately. cuz yeah.. I needed advice and all that jazz and said:

I realize you're sleeping and I hope your phone is off so I don't wake you.. but I think I was just told I should plan on not going on a mission...

and I woke up to this response:

Wow... you THINK? You mean you aren't SURE? ;) what happened? and You want to know the bizarre thing? when you told me that you were taking Andy to your party I had the weirdest feeling and I knew something was going to happen! Of course I just laughed at myself but.. wow.. that's weird...

AHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! Ok... lol now that that is kinda out of my system if anyone has any thoughts I could totally use them.. I'm going to go attempt to clean my room I think to try and keep my mind shut off...I mean I love him and I'm pretty sure this is what I've wanted from day like.. 5.. but now that this is an actual possibility instead of just wishful thinking I'm really really nervous.. I think.. it's all really new... I think.. I dunno.

No one must die.. just yet

SO I finally heard back from the IRS. I have a fingerprinting session on Wednesday. For any of you who don't know this is a big deal for me for a few reasons:

1. I hate my job as a customer service rep. I hate having to be nice to angry stupid people and having to work weekends and all that jazz
2. I miss my old job so much it hurts. physically hurts. I imagine this is what truly getting your heart broken would be like.
3. I miss the pay.. and the people. and the job security, and the insurance, and the ability it would give me to move out.. like right quick

I got 6 100 scores(it's out of 100) and the two they called me for fingerprinting for is a gs03 perm and a gs04 perm. what this means is that if and when I get called in I am in. No more furlough. And if I could get the gs04 again I'd be making about what I was making when I left. but with a union and insurance and all that fun stuff that I wasn't getting with IAP before. The other plus is that if the IRS were to outsource the files or whatev again it isn't a you just lost your job. once you are in unless you really f**k up or leave of your own free will you are in. They will just move you to a new department. I'm really hoping to get this job back. I'm sure I'll blog about it after every step

Next point. WTF happened with Verizon about an hour ago? did anyone Else's service just go out for about half an hour? yeah.. I dunno.. it was annoying

lol anywho.. I'm getting kicked off the damn computer cuz my stupid father is a selfish prick who can't seem to get that I work swings now.. that means I'm up until about 2 or later and i want to be on the computer when I get home cuz I never have time anytime else but no he confines me to my room cuz he has to sleep on the couch! GRR! This is why I'm moving out asap. anywho peace

insomnia

No matter how tired I am in class when I get home I am horribly awake so I stay that way til about 130. The good news? Malcolm in the middle plays on CW30 at 1 am. the bad news? at 7 when my alarm goes off. I'm freakin tired and grumpy. So i am going to blog about everything til either A) I get tired or B) Malcolm comes on

First: work.

It's not as bad as I thought it would be. I mean Granted I'm still in training and I haven't had that pissed off guy that threatens my life cuz I won't give him 5 free iphones but when they told me there were like 29 different computer programs that you use like every day I got a little nervous but so far I am retaining the info pretty well and able to use about 5 systems. and my years at Wendy's have taught me how to up sell so as long as I can keep my temper in check(I'm taking bets on this... I have everything form 5 minutes after I get a call to never getting fired if you would like to place one.. you have til the 21st on midnight)I think I'll do OK.

Speaking of keeping my temper in check. I'm learning about that this week. The girl I sit next to in class for this week is the most negative person I I have ever met! Emo/goth kids are more positive than this lady She complains about everything and acts like we should all care that her boyfriend is in jail leaving her to fend for herself and her two kids. She sits in class doing her make up and texting and drawing and then will wait til it's free time to independently work on what we've just discussed then she will bug me until I show her. This is how it usually goes:

Instructor: Ok class. You have ten minutes to work on adding a group feature and an individual feature

Girl who shall not be names (GWSNBN): *grabs my arm* wait what? I'm so lost and stupid. I'm just so tired cuz my boyfriend's in jail and my kid is sick and blah blah blah

Me:*mutters under breath* maybe if you payed attention...

G: What?

M: nothing.. get into the billing system...

G: what? csp? is it this *clicks on calculator*

M: *mutters* oh my.. *to other girl next to me* Hey Kristy since you've worked here before can you show [GWSNBN] how to do this so I can learn this too *whispers* and cuz you are more patient than I am

K: sure *moves over*

then this girl talks during the whole thing. asking questions that either a) have already been asked.. twice. b) have nothing to do with what we are discussing (IE we are discussing the billing system GWSNBN will ask about text messaging plans) or c) are just random comments about her life that have no relevance whatsoever... I can't freakin hear with her and when we partner up and I get stuck with her nothing gets done and I end up pulling something out of my ass to cover the fact that she wouldn't do anything but complain and mope and get so lost in the computer that the simplest thing-go to the at&t website- is like asking her to calculate the trajectory of this space probe.. in Latin. Grr.


Next item to calm down: My wonderful boyfriend.

As pissed off as I have been in the past few weeks with him and his gaming "habits" (IE addictions. I feel like i need a wow-anon for him.. Darcy I think I just found the name ;) woot for sleep deprivation! ) When I'm with him all that goes away.. unless he's on the game with his headphones in ignoring me then I feel like I'm on a date with Casper and I start to get ticked.. but again "nother post entirely But he's put up with the greenwell side of the family and is now getting ready to face the rigby/sparkes/like 45 other names (aka my mom's side) side of the family which are a crazy bunch of mofos and he allows me to blow up his inbox venting and come over when I am so crazy and depressed and pissed and a whole plethora of emotions and just let me vent or deal or whatev and be there. This is one of the many reasons I love him and put up with this wow addiction...

Yeah so now Malcolm is on so I'm outtie.. night ya'll

Oh how I hate school.(mild-moderate cursage)

K so I'm feeling amazingly useless right now. I go to school most days and work for most of the time and yet I feel like I'm swimming against the current. I'm stuck in freakin keyboarding cuz I can't type 40 wpm with that damn blinder on and I lost my english book for a while so back when I had Dr. Mann as an instructor/advisor I was doing about a chapter a week in English.. now that I have Lynn Davis I have been stuck on chapter 6 (possessive pronouns) for 5 weeks... Grr. It kinda makes me rethink this whole tech college thing... add on the fact that I don't get home until midnight and I usually can't fall asleep until about 130 or 2 and then I have to get back up at 7 to go to school til 10 then back home to sleep til noon then I get up and do like one thing then I have to go to work until midnight I can't get anything done during the day either. I feel like my whole day is wasted. in some ways I think it'll be easier in a few weeks when I go live and my whole day is lumped together. School til 10 the work from 1130 to 8 ish, then I can go home and crash. but I still won't get any time to see Andy, not that that'll change much.. Stupid wow til 5 am.... but that's a whole nother post entirely... adn when there are freaking 20 other computers in the room and only 3 of them in use, and the three of us are spread out, why in the hell would you come sit right next to me? go pick another computer. I don't care if it is your favorite. get here earlier or pick another computer. I'm not moving when I'm half done with my lesson and I hate having your crap all over my desk space and having you ask 87 questions so Lynn comes over and stands right behind me and makes it impossible to work or goof off or even sit comfortably cuz my chair has to be pushed in to the max! Pick a new damn spot or I'll have to resort to beig an ass so you'l go away! sorry I'm grumpy and frustrated with school today.. yeah that's pretty much it

black friday.. oh the insanity!

Today was black Friday. Aka The craziest day like EVA! I was on my way home from Andy's last night at about 130 in the morning and I drove by Sam's club-where they had $350 dollar laptops and $425 wii systems with like 3 controllers 3 nunchucks, 3 games and the wii system and there were people lining up and COPS already! Insane. I got up around 1130 and went and picked up my little sister and her friend who were brave enough to venture out in the earlyish hours of the morning and I could not find a place to park. Could not! I had to drive around and Call Ellie to have her come find me! Then we went to target cuz we got my parents a fire pit for Christmas and there were still like 85 thousand people there and the shelves were like barren! they had this display of like $3 movies! There was like one movie and the display had been ripped down! I didn't even dare go to walmarts! NUTS!

Haha but while I was waiting for my sister and her friend to pay for wrapping paper I ran into Andy's Cousin Audry, His Aunt Linda, His Aunt Kathy, and his cousin Shaylynn so that was kinda fun. I seem to attract Barnett's or something Cuz a little while later I ran into his brother, sister in law, and their two kids... haha ;) it was funny

Also just to brag: aside from the making of a few things and the shopping for my sister cuz she was with me all day, I am done with Christmas shopping! yes! I'll still prolly go, but I don't have to! Everyone who is getting a gift from me this year is taken care of. Thank you Thank you

that's pretty much it

Note to self:

List of movies one shouldn't watch just days after ones dog died:

1. My dog Skip
2. All dogs go to heaven

OK it's a short list.. I'll add more when I think of them. But one shouldn't watch these particular movies back to back 4 days after ones dog has died... unless one would like a bawlfest...

Thanksgiving...and my crazy family

So I finally got Andy to come to family stuff.. I'm easing him into my family (unlike he did me but that's another story ;) jk) so anyway I got him to come to my family's thanksgiving and stuff.. It was my dad's side of the family so there was my family of me my mom my dad and my sister- all of which he's met- my grandma greenwell-who he's met- my uncle, one cousin, and my grandma sparkes-which he hasn't met. It was interesting to say the least..

First off within ten minutes of our getting there my dad points at Andy and says "Andy come on"... and Andy does cuz what can you do? THEY THEN GET IN THE CAR AND LEAVE!!!!!!!!!

Let me explain. Andy and I are both night people. Therefore we hang out til like 2 or three in the morning a lot. To my parents, that are both just SO-O trusting of me, this means that he and I are breaking various chastity rules and among other things. (which we are not....in case anyone was wondering) Upon entering my house the first thing I am asked is "what were you doing this late?" and the standard response is "we were just talking" which is true... yeah. I usually have to take a pregnancy test once every other month or so.. you think I'm kidding..now you see a tiny bit of why I was nervous..

Back to the story...where was I? oh yes...ahem.. THEY GET INT HE CAR AND LEAVE!!!!!!!!! It took about .5 seconds for me to FREAK OUT! I have no idea what is going on or if I'll ever see my nerd again.... EVER! They were back in like five minutes but it felt like a long time... like forever and a day then we had dinner where Andy proceeded to rip my sister apart in a hilarious way

then we went to his grandmas house where we talked with his family for like 3 hours.. now I'm watching him play wow on blogging on his laptop so he'll be able to find my blog and read all those posts about him.. and I don't really care because I doubt that he can be near a computer without playing wow.. if it's installed.. so I think I'm safe ;)

My little Eddybear

I figured since most people didn't get to meet my little eddybear before he was run down I would post pics. I just really miss him mostly.



This is Ed and Hunter Begging My sister(that's her green shirt in the corner

Here He is sleeping on the couch. He was quite a spoiled hound He got to sleep on the couch with a blanket

And A pillow. The red/tan/brown dog in his sister charly. They were always together... for anyone who's read where the red fern grows They really were old dan and lil anne.

Here's one where I was trying to sneak up and get a pic of him with his tongue out. He woke up and kinda looked at me like.. Huhwha?

Here he is with his pillow again. Hunter is sitting with him this time.

I call this the Eddybear pose..

Here he is with his blanket again looking at me and ellie like 'you are strange'

this is the last one I got of him before he was gone. I needed a pic of how he got his name This is how he would sleep. When he was little my dad brought both dogs home and said "he made me take the male but don't get too used to him. We're not keeping him." Well you can't bring an adorable little puppy home to three girls and then say that. We kept him for a while but we never really gave him a name.. we just called him puppy. About 2 months after we got him he got parvo. We fed him pedialite and Gatorade and nursed him back to health against all odds. Obviously after that he was ours. But he still had no name. My mom one day while taking the dogs to the kennel said "ed charly kennel up" and I looked at her and said "who's ed?" My mom said "I was sick of just calling him Puppy or Dog so I named him after the hyena on the lion king cuz he kinda looks like him and he sleeps with his tongue out" and the name stuck

There are places in our front yard where the grass is worn out because Ed was content to run circles around the house for hours and hours. Just running in circles barking happily.

A few years ago we couldn't find Ed. We were hollering and hollering but we couldn't find him. Then out of one of our peach trees Ed jumped. He had been sitting in the v of this tree eating peaches for the last half hour. IN THE TREE! he had figured out how to get up in the tree

Sometimes you would call him and pat your lap like you wanted him to sit with you and he would jump up and sit up on your shoulder like a parrot. He earned the nickname pirate Ed for that one.

If he heard music he would come and jump up and put his front paws on your shoulders and whine until you danced with him. He was Ed the dancing Hound.

He was brave enough to take on bears and coyotes and wild beasts of all kinds yet gentle enough that when wylie or zack or any number of rough or young kids would come over they could climb all over him and he would let them. He never got rough or even nipped at anyone

He was my dad's best coyote hunting tool cuz he would run for miles on end without getting tired.

He was my mom's baby. She named him and did most of the nursing when he got sick. He loved watching soaps and survivor with my mom.

He was my sisters doll. Friday she painted his nails pink despite my protests. She was the one that came up with the name Eddybear

He was my bronco buddy. He loved to sit up in the recliner with me during the games. He would jump up when I did and when they were losing or doing badly he would growl at the TV. He also loved to jump up on me when I was reclined and flop over on his back and recline with me.

We've kept him alive so many times. against all odds he made it to four years old. And I daresay he had some of the best four years a hound could ever ask for. I mean how ridiculous is it that we had a lap hound? It's pretty silly and yet I wouldn't trade it for anything, no matter how much of a redneck it makes us. He got to go out and run and chase small helpless animals and bark and pee to his hearts content about 3 times a week.

This house just isn't the same without his adorable stupid grin and happy bark as he ran about begging for food or attention or just someone to play with.

I hope he's up in heaven with my other dogs booner and sadie and spike and coco and my two grandpas and various other relatives. I hope he has a place to run circles around and All the food he could ever want. As you can maybe tell from the pictures we could never keep any weight on him. Ever. We constantly fed him and always way more than the other dogs and yet he was always starving it seems. We could never figure it out. At least now he doesn't have to deal with that. I hope he has a couch to curl up on and broncos games to watch and someone to love him like my mom did. I also hope he's doing some good. I don't really know what animals do in heaven-cuz I know most people when they die are up there either teaching others or learning the truth-but I'd like to think that some little boy who is waiting for his family to come join him needed a friend and no one could ask for a better one than Ed.

I love you Ed and I will see you again. I promise. In the meantime be a good boy and do whatever it is you were needed up there for.

You killed my dog! You B@$&*#d!(much cursage.)

So as per the previous post My dog Ed was hit and killed Saturday. I have now obtained more info on what happened that night and I am pissed.(I was with Andy at the time.. and it's a good damn thing or I really would be in jail)

Seems like the kid that hit him was going fast enough to hit my 95 pound dog flip him up on the hood of his car, then flip him another 9 or 10 feet forward. That's way faster than the speed limit of 40 mph. Way Way WAY faster.. like reckless driving faster. You stupid fuck. Slow the fuck down! it's late, dark, and residential! You are lucky it was a dog and not a child or jogger or something. Cuz then you are looking at manslaughter not just a dent in your damn hood.

Which brings me to my next point of.. enragement. MY FUCKING DOG IS DEAD BECAUSE OF YOU!!!!!!!!!! You don't get to add insult to injury by getting out and apologizing once, not even look at the creature you murdered and proceed to INSPECT YOUR FUCKING CAR!!!!!! MY FUCKING FAMILY IS TRYING TO DEAL WITH THE FACT THAT WE JUST LOST A BELOVED PET AND YOU ARE ASKING ABOUT INSURANCE?! WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU YOU HEARTLESS BASTARD?! He is so goddamn lucky I was not around. He woulda had a whole hell of a lot more to worry about then a fucking dent. And I swear to god he tries and put an insurance claim thru and I will make sure that car never runs again. Nor will he be driving anytime soon. How would you like it is I hit your fucking cat and then instead of apologizing and trying to help I fucking bugged you about insurance and the blood that was on my car? I don't care if I am an adult now and I have a record. You. put. a. claim. thru. or EVER. dare. to. show. your. face. anywhere. near. my. family. again. and. I. will. beat. the. shit. outta. you. you. insensitive. prick.

So anyone who made it thru this whole thing-or even bothered trying- slow down and watch out while driving at night. Even at 40-the speed limit- Ed prolly woulda died cuz he was so skinny, but I woulda had a lot easier time forgiving the kid. And for the love of all things holy. if you hit someones pet unless it's a horse that totalled your car or you are hurt don't ask about insurance. That's all

Unemployment

So I finally get unemployment!!!!! it only took 9 weeks of fighting it!!! But I get a lump sum of about a grand-cuz I forgot to file a few weeks-but yeah. And it's court ordered.. they can't come back and say just kidding. The judge said it and it was final. YAY!!!!!!!!

the definition of bipolar

So last night was a roller coaster of emotions....







I got to go hang out with my 3 favorite guys in the whole wide world.



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And My dog Ed got hit by a car and died.



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I was sitting at home bored as hell so I texted Andy and said hey lets go do something.. and he agreed so we agreed to go meet up at the mall and go see one of the two movies we've been trying to see for a while-role models and zac and miri make a porno. So I jumped in my car and headed down to the mall and on my way my phone rang and it was krogman and zane basically saying come play with us... so I told them I'd come play after the movie... (zane has met andy before but not since he was a huge pothead and krogman has never met him.. but since they are both like my brothers they are very protective of me and wanted to make sure he was a good guy and all.. isn't that sweet?) any way. I met andy at the mall and we ended up going to see zac and miri. So We were sitting there waiting for the movie to start and my phone started ringing(it was on vibrate. relax) and my mom was calling me. so I ignored the call and texted her that I was in a movie and asked what was up. The text I got back was something along the lines of 'Ed got hit by a car and died. I'm sorry I didn't know you were in a movie enjoy your movie.' I was pretty much floored.. I showed andy the text and then said "sorry I gotta go call them" so I did and I kinda started crying in the theater lobby when I called my mom and she was sobbing and I could hear my sister in the back crying and my dad was in the back being pissed off which is how he and I show we are really distraught. I was really worried it was just my mom and sister home which is the main reason I called cuz my dad had been out of town for the last few days and if that had been the case I woulda had to go home and bury my dog... cuz my mom and sister couldn't've done it. Hell I dunno if I coulda done it..but I didn't have to. anyway I went back into the theater and just basically turned off...Andy's arm is still prolly numb from the awkward way he had it the whole 2 hour movie cuz I was like right up under it trying to hide and not think. (seth rogan movies are good for not making you think too much.. and porns are too.. so this was a good movie for being able to shut off in)


Then we went over to Zane's house to hang out with him and Krogman and 3 girls only one of which I'd ever met. We ended up watching terrible porn and mocking it mercilessly(yes I realize I'm going to hell. not only for participating in it but for allowing my good little rm boyfriend to participate in it... thats the part I feel badly about...mostly. not for doing it but for bringing Andy along.) then it was time for a coupla of the girls to go home and Krogman had to drive them so andy and I bounced.





Then we went to dinner. Then we went back to the mall to pick up my car cuz it was like 2 am and I knew I needed to go home at sometime...


so we were in the parking lot listening to my music cuz andy's ipod died(much to his chagrin he doesn't really like my music.. well the rap and pop portions.. he likes the stuff he introduced me to.. so I made sure and skipped all that...;) cuz I'm an ass like that) and we looked over and one of his coworkers cars had been hit in the parking lot so we went down to see what was up and he ended up offering a ride to this lady and her friend (cuz he's nice like that...it's one of the many reasons I love him.) so we kinda got rushed into leaving so I couldn't think about the fact that I was going home to a dead pet. so I was fine til I got home.





I walked in and everyone was asleep. Even the three remaining dogs. And I walked in all quiet cuz my dad was asleep on the couch But charly woke up. I walked by and went into my room and I shut the door but not tight and got into bed and Charly poked her head into my room kinda like "is he with you?" and I kinda welled up and I said "come here charly" and patted my bed and she jumped up and curled up next to me and started like whimpering. And I lost it.



I guess I should explain. Charly and Ed are brother and sister. They have never been separated. My dad would occasionally take one or the other on overnighters and whatev but they've always been together for the most part. I don't care what anyone else says. Charly misses her brother. She knows she's on her own now... she's in mourning. They all are... we all are.. every time the dogs get let out they track Ed to where he was hit and his final resting place. every single time without fail. Charly has to be carried in cuz she won't leave.

so yeah.. that was pretty much my Saturday...

I got HAcked!!!!!!-anyone with facebook should read

So for everyone who has Facebook, my profile got hacked... so if anyone gets a weird wall post about your pic being anywhere DON'T CLICK ON IT!!!!!! It's a hacker site that will spam your friends with the same type of wall post.. sorry for the inconvenience....

Christmas tag

Welcome to the Christmas edition of getting to know your friends. Okay, here's what you're supposed to do, and try not to be a SCROOGE!!! Just copy this entire post and paste into a new post. Change all the answers so that they apply to you.

Thanks for tagging me tara!

1. Wrapping paper or gift bags? wrapping paper in multiple levels so that when you get done unwrapping the gift it took you 20 minutes and although you started with a huge looking gift you end up with a stick of gum or something ;)
2. Real tree or Artificial? Artificial! And pre-lit!!!! Then Pine Scented Glade Plug-In for effect!-agreed
3. When do you put up the tree? MY mom usually makes us put it up the Day after thanksgiving..
4. When do you take the tree down? sometime around mid January
5. Do you like eggnog? Not at ALL!!!! unless it contains alcohol... jk
6. Favorite gift received as a child? um... I dunno.. the fish they gave me?
7. Do you have a nativity scene?we used to.. then most of the pieces got lost.. we sometimes put up the Shepard and oxen and empty barn and I think Mary
8. Hardest person to buy for? my mom or grandmothers
9. Easiest person to buy for? Ellie and Andy(this year) and my cousins
10. Mail or email Christmas cards? I have totally slacked the last couple years but every time I have done Christmas Cards it was by mail!-agreed
11. Worst Christmas gift you ever received? um.. when I was 9 my dad gave me connibears-traps... that he wanted.. yeah.. for real
12. Favorite Christmas Movie? That is such a hard question! There are soooooo many! Elf, , Muppet Christmas Carol, The Grinch (both versions),and the classic Christmas story there is no way I can make that decision!
13. When do you start shopping for Christmas? Well about august.. cuz I worked at Wendy's for three years.. when you make $6.70 an hour pulling $200 bucks out of it isn't easy but pulling $10 or so every other week is doable
14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? yup
15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas? um... uhnuh.. I'm a fat kid.. I like all kindsa food
16. Clear lights or colored on the tree ? Colored
17. Favorite Christmas song? I love Christmas music! I am the kind of person that could listen to it all year round! So as for having a favorite I don't think I could pick just one! I do have favorite versions of each song though!
18. Travel at Christmas or stay home? Stay at home!
19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeer's? Dasher, Dancer, Prancer, Vixen, Comet, Cupid, Donner, Blitzen, Rudolph
20. Angel on the tree top or a star?it's a star but I think it may be time to get something new
21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning? family given gifts on Christmas eve-we have a party with my dad's side of the family there are like 9 of us now I guess- then the Santa gifts Christmas morning
22. Most annoying thing about this time of year? how walmarts and the mall and all those places put out Christmas stuff in freakin august!
23. Favorite ornament theme or color? most of mine are ones that my aunt sent us each year growing up.. so all mine reflect my stuff.. like dew and soccer and horses and dogs and stuff
24. Favorite for Christmas dinner? I wish we'd have turkey but we always have icky ham
25. What do you want for Christmas this year?I'll end up with clothes and stuff for when I move out..pans pots etc...but I'd like a car stereo or computer or new DVD/VCR player
26. Who are you going to tag for this Christmas questionnaire?? uhnuh... only Lucy Tara and Annie read this oh and Darcy... as far as I know.. so lets go with that

cop convention at my school...Tara!

so today I went to school and I was sitting in the parking lot thinking of all the reasons I shoulda set my alarm 10 minutes later so I woulda been right on time for school instead of ten minutes early and I see one cop drive by and pull into the school parking lot.. huh. I think... that's kinda weird but whatevs... then another cop pulled in.. then like 4 or 5. the whole time I'm sitting in my car debating how suspicious it will seem if I just drive off(for anyone who doesn't know.. cops seem to like to stop me.. possible cuz well over half the cops in the south Ogden/Roy/riverdale/terrace area know me by name... also I just look like trouble? I dunno) and how much more school I can afford to miss... I finally make up my mind to go in and I go in and can the smart ass talk that usually accompanies me to my classes and just go in and start doing school stuff... well about an hour before my class is set to get out I find out there was a cop convention at my school! there were around 84 cops 2 doors down from me all morning.

needless to say I got out of school and went driving around at triple digits for a few hours cuz I knew where all the cops in the city were ;)

random story I know.. deal

these are getting shorter cuz so is my free time... :P(mild cursing)

Yeah so this is one cuz I'm totally bored and frusterated with trying to find Twilight tickets... I had no idea it would be sold out.. everywhere... for like THE NEXT YEAR!!!!!!!!! WTF?! I was worried about you know car payments and schooling stuff and unemployment(which is a joke...but we'll get to that later) ... where are my priorities? But the good news is I found some at the mall.. so all is good.. ish

Unemployment on the other hand is a complete joke. Can anyone tell me why my going to school to be of some use to society so I don't have to draw unemployment could possibly inhibit them from giving me a little back from what I've put into for four damn years!!! I am being productive and honest and I get screw where if I had lied I'd be OK and if I had just sat at my house doing nothing instead of getting into school they would pay me to sit around home eating bon bons but god forbid I go out and be productive... News flash.. there are 24 hours in a day.. I was in school 6 and I need about 8 to sleep.. that's 14 hours... leaving 10 for work.. plenty of time to accept full time work.. grr.. I have a phone hearing on Monday with an unemployment judge to determine if they give me the $2700 for the 9 weeks I've been unemployed-like they said they will in a letter they sent me a damn MONTH ago!- or if I get held in phone court contempt. Cuz if they say I don't get... My amazing German temper will show up... I'm sure. And remember what happened last time someone pissed a German off? Yeah.. actually I'll prolly just tell the judge that unemployment is an f***ing joke and that he's a moron if he can't see how I am way more deserving than most the other people I know who are on it... and a lot more... so if I get held in phone court contempt I'm going to need ya'll to come visit me in phone jail...

yeah k I need some sleep before work... adios

Day one

haha I'm sure you are all DYING to know how my first day as a telemarketer/customer service rep went.. lol you're not? I'm telling you anyway

It sounds like everything will be really technical. there are like 30 different programs you have to use simulatiously. But we didn't really get into anything too technical.. mostly just how we can't talk about info we receive from work and stuff.. yeah.. plus I don't get on phones til like the end of December.. so around then if any of you are having problems with your at&t cell service you should not call and yell.. it could be me on the other end.. and I'd really like to get promoted cuz it sounds like the 100 of us that make up the first classes are going to be eligible for the leads and managers and stuff... that would be nice... lol yeah.. lots of PowerPoint's and stuff.

The facility is really nice. There is like a caf where they sell everything from cereal to hot dogs and hamburgers to lighters.. it's really nice. there are 2 video game consoles so you can bring like your x box game and play and they have an on site gym and a "relaxation room" with like a huge beanbag chair and stuff.. it's pretty nice... yeah.. that's about all I know... they did manage to misspell my name on my badge while I spelled it to them.. not even the hard first name.. they misspelled Greenwell... the easy one... my badge now reads Myndi Greenweel.. I need to go get that fixed.. If I can manage to not get fired it'll be a miracle!

Speaking of miracles!)(remember: mental contract....) I GOT ANDY TO AGREE TO LEAVE HIS CAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! All I had to do is beg and plead and beg some more... ;) lol no it wasn't that bad... I just asked when I could extract him from his cave(again.. haha hint hint ;) boys and their lack of getting subtle hints) and he said how bout tomorrow... Buhwhat? I was standing in the caff with Mabe-his cousin or Cody-going.. wow.. and Mabe just laughed and then went outside while I ate my delicious burger.(oh yeah.. I work with Andy's cousin Mabe/Cody and his sister in law's sister-technically his sister in law to I guess.. and a few people I went to high school with it'll be nice) yeah.. the end.

meh

I will be joining the working world again in about an hour... meh... I'm not sure how I feel about it.. I want the cash.. but I've really enjoyed all this free time... it's kinda like the first day of school.. lol anyway yeah..

and grows..

Again, No speaking to Andy about the contents of this blog and all that other stuff...Yeah I'll talk to him about it if needs be.. and not before.. I don't want him finding out the extent of my hatred via third party. yeah OK remember mental contract.



I'm still not all about the stupid damn game. Kinda in hate with it-it's the opposite of in love. I mean yes I'm glad that he enjoys it and is having fun and whatever. And he did emerge from his cave to go to church with his family today and have dinner with his family and I even got like 4 texts,(one of which is saved in my box for future use. it states that I can get him out of his cave anytime I ask...you bet I'm going to use that one... more than once...lol) but yeah.. he's once again lost in his virtual world of magic and flying lions and robots and rock creatures and the like..grr.. the good news is I told him At eh very latest Tuesday I'm extracing him from the cave to go out in the sun as much as it may burn... and he didn't object... I don't think.. so Tuesday I'll see him.. hopefully... and for sure Friday when we go see twilight! which comes out on Friday! YAY!!!!!

But I'm still not sure how to take this whole getting thrown over for a game. I mean I told Darcy last night I think I could go over there and do a fan dance with a lettuce leaf and there would be no reaction. I've been quite tempted to test this theory..in a lees extreme manner that is.. or just show up at his house and hear all the embarrassing stories his mom has to offer...I'm sure she'd be more than willing to oblige.. they love me because I love their son and put up with all this gaming crap. I'm also not sure I should care. I mean I totally had a life before I met him. I should be able to entertain myself. And yet... it's way dumb.. I know....grrr... stupid hormones

on a totally unrelated topic the broncos won! the key to their winning seems to be me going to church and not watching the games.... I will support my team by not supporting them!!!

and on another completely unrelated note I start work tomorrow... yeah.. so if you have a problem with your at&t service and call to yell at someone.. don't yell at me.. I need to not get fired.. yeah

the end

my hatred of blizzard grows...

So as anyone dating a nerd(me) or a gamer/nerd themselves (Lucy :P ) knows the new expansion pack of wow just came out:wrath of the lynch king(wotlk). I am not so thrilled.. and I'm blogging about it.. and anyone who reads this is forbidden from speaking to Andy about the contents of this or any other post containing my hatred of blizzard, or directing him to it.. or innuendoing around it.. or anything of the like By reading this you have now entered into a mental contract.

So I pretty much hate blizzard right now. I have a feeling that it's going to be even harder than it was before to get him out of his cave. Also this weekend sucks... I haven't spoken to or even heard from him since Wednesday night when he was waiting for the stupid game to come out. I'm not all about it. I never have been. I go and watch him sometimes. but that's strictly to spend time with him. And I do enjoy listening to all the people on vent. they make me laugh. but as for the actual game? HATE IT!!!!!!!!! Some of my frustrations concerns and worries were vented in a previous blog(the boys wow and a mission...maybe one) but really I kinda just hate blizzard. And whoever got him started into it. usually. Again, he's a big boy and I wouldn't tell him not to play or do anything (unless it got too bad.. like those people on Dr Phil. or some of the more harmful things of the world. the whole word of wisdom thing? yeah.. we've discussed it. he knows what will happen if that becomes a problem again.. as do I. It goes both ways) but I really really don't like playing second banana to a video game. or having to plan my life around a video game. or anything of the like. I mean yes it's great that you enjoy it and that you're good at it and yes I did ignore the whole world when breaking dawn and the 7Th harry potter came out.. but only for like 12 to 20 hours. not for days and weeks on end. I'm sure there's some psychological reason behind it cuz he's really shy and whatev but.. yeah.. I'm just bored and really hating this game and really missing Andy right now... that's pretty much it.

Lessons learned the hard way(with hilarious results)

Never Never NEVER go food shopping whilst hungry. I just learned this lesson. I've forgotten to eat anything substantial since lunch/dinner yesterday so about 6 pm I realized I was STARVING!!!!! and I had finished off the last of my heavenly bread earlier I went on a food hunt of epic proportions only to find there was really not a whole lot-we usually do our food shopping on Saturdays so yeah nothing- and I ate most of my stash. so I went to Harmon's to get food. Bad idea. I ended up coming home with the following:

• 12 frozen pizzas
• 4 stuffed chicken breasts(they are stuffed with broccoli and cheese or ham and cheese)
• 2 bags of chips
• 2 bags of frozen fries
• 2 packages of hot dogs
• a box of brownie mix
• 3 boxes of tuna helper(and no tuna.. I thought we had some in the house.. guess not)
• 3 loaves of heavenly french bread
• a bag of rice
• a bag of lettuce
• 2 bottles of naked juice..(it this stuff that's like half juice and half smoothie.. it's really good)
• some microwavable egg rolls
• and 6 cans of chili-for chili cheese fries, dogs, and french bread sandwiches

so as you can see coupled with all the 12 packs of dew cherry coke pomegranate 7up and sierra mist and rice crispy treats and kudos bars in my room I'm totally set on food for the next Millena.. I mean who buys 12 cheese pizzas? even if they were 10 for $10...

On another topic but under the same category(of lessons learned the hard way): If you drink 11 cans of dew-or prolly any soda.. or beverage for that matter- in under an hour. Just know.. it'll take about three times that long to get it all out of your system... and I wouldn't be going to far from a bathroom for the whole time. Also I wouldn't drink that many dews at 1130 at night... you won't get to sleep til about 5 then your alarm will go off at 7 for school... not fun.. lol yeah that's it

Such randomness

So I was laying in bed Wednesday night watching the Simpson's and I got the strangest craving. I wanted french bread more than anything! It was so weird. But I sat there thinking I am not going to put my shoes back on and drive clear up to the store for freaking bread. About two hours later it was still there and my sister called my mom and needed a ride home, so I volunteered to go get Ellie and I went to the store after word and bought two loaves of freakishly long and skinny bread and brought it home and it was delectable! I also found out that if you put chili and cheese on it and make a sandwich it is amazing! yeah.. random happenings

Ellie's adventures in Teenage parenting-for school

So as previously mentioned My sister Ellie has to take A baby Simulator for her Adult roles class. I did it two years ago. It sucked... a lot. haha but here is the chronology of Ellie yesterday:

The first one is right after she got home. There is her and LaNessa-that's what she named it- and my dog Hunter on her bed. She's all excited cuz it sounds like a fun assignment when you first get it.

The second pic is one I got just as I was going to bed. it's about 130 in the morning and baby LaNessa has been crying for about 45 minutes. Ellie has no idea what is wrong cuz it won't 'eat' and she's changed it's diaper and tried to 'burp' it... I told her it was prolly on colicky mood and would do that all night. (which it did)

The third one is her this morning about 7 when we were both getting ready for school. She has slept like 3 hours total and was trying to get ready and I heard LaNessa start crying...and keep crying for about a minute so I walked in and found Ellie sitting there like that... it was funny. I'm sure funnier to anyone who has actual children. But having had to do the assignment twice two years ago I find it pretty hilarious too. And she still has one more day.. we'll see how tonight goes tee hee